...horrible sins...? I have argued constantly with my mother to such an extent where it has caused her to become distressed at many a time, among other evil acts against others. So, I have come to the conclusion that the only way I shall ever truly atone for this is if I die in great physical pain, preferably as a result of being killed as if in combat or a police situation. I figure it makes sense since, if reincarnation were the case I would be born into a life where my own evil acts now would be turned against me, or if reincarnation is not the case, then I would be tortured for all eternity in Hell or a similar dimension and also get what I deserve.
How do I go about such a manner, preferably having my blood shed deliberately in imitation of a sacrificial sin offering of old? Should I, or should I not, and if so or if not, why?
Other methods that I could consider acceptable for this include sticking myself with a syringe used on someone with a dread disease, such as HIV, hepatitis C or such. A long, drawn-out death if I find myself too gutless to kill myself in an immediate manner. The pain from that would be atonement as well.
@ Question Everything: I have an ex-girlfriend who has hepatitis C (I didn't catch it from her though; the doctors confirmed that). Problem would be attaining a blood sample from her and injecting or ingesting it in order to become infected.
@ C-Level: True. And I am intending to correct that by destroying myself, due to the knowledge that I never will become "mature" enough. I would be worth far more dead than alive anyway. I want to die for my sins.
Maybe I could antagonise the USMC?
How do I go about such a manner, preferably having my blood shed deliberately in imitation of a sacrificial sin offering of old? Should I, or should I not, and if so or if not, why?
Other methods that I could consider acceptable for this include sticking myself with a syringe used on someone with a dread disease, such as HIV, hepatitis C or such. A long, drawn-out death if I find myself too gutless to kill myself in an immediate manner. The pain from that would be atonement as well.
@ Question Everything: I have an ex-girlfriend who has hepatitis C (I didn't catch it from her though; the doctors confirmed that). Problem would be attaining a blood sample from her and injecting or ingesting it in order to become infected.
@ C-Level: True. And I am intending to correct that by destroying myself, due to the knowledge that I never will become "mature" enough. I would be worth far more dead than alive anyway. I want to die for my sins.
Maybe I could antagonise the USMC?