The Hella Weak Chronic-less Chronicles

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Ughh. I have bitched before about my mom using an open wireless network from a train station two blocks away. Well, I'm bitching again, because it fucking sucks.

She doesn't see the problem with having spotty internet that only works, sometimes, in the breakfast nook. She has access to an internet-enabled computer at work, all day. Meanwhile, I am stuck at home without internet, which severely hampers my ability to look for work. It also cuts off one of my precious lines out of this place.

I can't drive, there's most likely a warrant out for me (unpaid tickets), my only friend close enough to hang out with regularly is my sister. I can't smoke cigarettes or weed, or drink. I have read all of my books (except the corny self-help ones). My headphones are now blown out, and sound like shit. I try to engross myself in hobbies, but the best way for me to learn is through online research. TV is ok sometimes.

So it's nights like tonight, that I can either go to sleep, or stare at the fucking walls. And I'm not fucking tired.

In case you are wondering, I am typing this on my phone. It has the internet, but the phone is from 2007 and about 1/2 of this page consists of formatting errors. The vast majority of websites are unusable, the rest of them are just almost unusable. I will be surprised if this posts, often it doesn't go through.

I get news on my phone, but I generally read it all pretty quickly... Even after adding more news sources.

I have had the internet for half of my life. Private (or solitary, or at least consistent) access to the internet is a big part of the life of a well-adjusted person my age. My mom not only doesn't understand, but she's broke and over her head in debt, so she won't pay for it. I am in over my head in debt, and have no income yet.

But I feel fucking crazy, because when I can't get my 'net fix it really feels like shit. Whatever, I probably sound like a bitch for complaining, but Jesus Christ my life feels emptier every day and the internet at least allows me to have experiences within this narrow fucking shell I've trapped myself in.

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It's called getting out of the house and talking a walk. Doing something alternatively. Read a book, play a board game or some fashion of video game. Pick up a newspaper... they still print them. Or call someone since your phone apparently does do something besides search the internet.

Internet access is a privilege that still doesn't frequent every home in America because some folks do not see it as a necessity and it truly isn't. It sounds like you have a roof over your head, food in your belly and a warm, dry place to sleep at night.

I think that perhaps you have given up so much of what you wanted that you have lost sight of what you have and what you truly need to survive. Looking on the bright side might help with your current mindset. We all get spoiled to something in our lives. Perhaps you should take this time to find something else to fill that void.

The finest things in life are basic... there are people that live in the USA and all over the planet that don't have those things, never had them and will die never knowing them.
 
Those things are boring as fuck...

Icarus. That blows monkey balls. No guitar? No crappy Casio? Need me to mail you a cd with some fun music apps?
 
I feel ya Iccy, but Yeah. What Lioness said. Having been homeless and other fun such situations, respect the basics man. You can only move up. It will get better. Hang in there. All that.
 
NEG REP. Clearly you don't understand. Also, I dismissed some of your suggestions in my OP.

If I get out of the house and take a walk when my boredom peaks (10:00 pm when everyone in my house goes to sleep, to 3:00am when I can force myself to sleep), I look suspicious as fuck in this dead-poke fucking town with not a soul on the streets. If a cop so much as talks to me (and believe me the cops around here have nothing better to do), bam license from Los Angeles is suspicious, bam runs the info... jail time. I am NOT going to jail.

Whatever, clearly you don't understand... I have been occupying myself as much as I can. :rolleyes:
 
Are you also sharing a computer with your mom still?

Need some e-books (besides the origami ones)? Let me know, I'll be glad to send you some other stuff to read.
 
That seriously sucks. Is there anyway you can borrow money from another family member or take out a loan from the bank to pay your tickets? I'm not sure how CA laws work, but maybe they will take pity on you if you were laid off or fired (assuming you didn't get fired for violence or drugs if you did indeed get fired) if you try to take out a loan from the bank. You may have to put your car up as collateral, but even if you can find some odd and end jobs and make the payments, it kicks the shit out of possibly going to jail. Not to mention peace of mind is priceless.

If you like Stephen King and old school video games, I'd be cool with parting with a few books and my little $20 arcade thingies that plug into the front of your TV to help you deal with SOME boredom.
 
Gee, I wonder whatever did the folks do before 1990? :rolleyes:

The internet is not a necessity. It's strictly a convenience, especially in the OP's case.

While I understand the OP's pain, I'm not too sympathetic...sounds like he's paying the price for past misgivings.
 
Gee, I wonder what pilgrims did without cars! Oh, right, they didn't live in a society structured around urban sprawl that made them necessary for most people to retain employment. :rolleyes:


Actually, the internet is a necessity for many who do work that require it, day trade or bank online. Furthermore, who gives a shit if it's not? We don't live based on necessities anymore if we can help it.
 
I go back 20 years, and you go back 300. Nice correlation, Jung.

A LOT of folks live only on necessities, Jung..get a fucking clue
 
It was an analogy intended to point out the absurdity of picking an arbitrary point in the past and comparing it with modern necessities. Cars are necessary for most people today, and yet were an exclusive privilege not that long ago. The internet is essentially the same; I, for example, need an internet connection for my job and managing financial stuff. I have friends who day trade all day and require the internet as a means to obtain income. It may be a want for some, but that doesn't mean it's that way for everyone.


I never said they didn't. And yet rampant consumerism has been driving our economy for decades. DO you honestly thing the average household has less than 30k in savings/investments, little to no equity and massive revolving debt and yet the majority live only on necessities? I have a clue, friend, because I'm basing my opinion on reality rather than quaint conventionalisms.
 
As far as the net stuff goes, it is not a necessity, unless, like you say..it's your job. I was speaking from a home-use type thing, perhaps I should have pointed out the obvious when I posted that. As a society, we have gotten ridiculously spoiled on conveniences, myself included. When I think about it, it's really not a good thing. It really wasnt that long ago, for me, that I relied on public transportation, or my feet in order to get from point A to point B. And when I finally got a car, for awhile there, it was my home....hence my lack of sympathy for the OP, who, IMO, does not need a home computer to find a job.

Never in my post did I say the majority live only on necessity, but there's an assload of folks out there that do just that.

Edit: And you realize, that one day...some motherfucker will take the internet down...maybe not for long, but someone will do that.
 
Many do not have access to public trans. Just saying.


If he has no means of transportation an internet connection could improve his chances of getting a job.


Uh huh. Noone can take down "the internet" as an entity, because the internet is a decentralized network of networks.
 
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