Self Mutilators SPEAK OUT!!#@

Juvi sucks, i was in Phoenix correnctial faculty. Where it was 60% BLacks 30% mexicans and 10% other. You wanna get into the little factions so you dont get fuckered up in your sleep or showertime beatings. THis was a way to prove how strong you where. you might say that that cant do that they watch you guys 24/7. bullshit they know all the perfect times. and if you fucked with 1mexican you pulled the whole burrito. pretty shitty thats why it "saved you" if you won the little cutting games
 
The one's that piss me off are not so much the self-mutilators, but the people who "fail suicide". How the fuck can you fail suicide? If you want to die, you can do it. There is not a person alive that doesn't have that power. I mean hell, just do this :gun: :) . If you don't have a gun, do this :tongue: :sword: . If worse comes to worse, jump off a cliff, stand in front of a train, or break your own damn neck!

PS: I don't condone suicide, I'm just saying if you're too pathetic to successfully commit suicide, then you should never have been born.
 
I have had problems with anger in the past... I broke my closet with my fist a while ago.

However, I'm afraid of knives. Lame, yes. Cowardly, yes. But I don't cut myself.

My Ex-Girlfriend used to cut herself. I checked her arms every time I saw her... she stopped. I'm not sure if she has started again... but its not a place I wish to go.

That being said, my release is basketball. If I were tall enough to dunk, I bet it'd be even more effective.

Whaling on stuff isn't much different than cutting, but it doesn't (usually) hurt anything. But cutting is a habit, kind of like drugs... people get mental addictions.
 
ok i am going to tell you guys my story so that maybe you get an idea why some people are cutters- i don't want your pity so don't give it, i am a healthy person now and very happy...

when i was 14 i was gang raped and beaten. When i got out of the hospital I didn't know what to do with myself for a long time and i didn't talk for a whole week and talked very little when i decided to begin talking again. I couldn't understand how people could be so cruel and evil. I became so numb and i was in my own world. my mother pulled me from school and we moved, then i had no one to talk to and i didn't want to talk to anyone at my new school. I thought that they could see it on me, that now i was diseased with this awful past. i sat alone and only wore black so no one would look at me. I can't express how numb i was... i couldn't feel anything. i didn't cry at movies anymore, i didn't care when my mom would start crying because I wouldn't talk to her. I became so angry with myself. One day i picked up a lighter to light a candle when i was locked out of my house. it got really hot and i accidentally burned myself- i was amazed. i could feel again. i began cutting myself because i could not cry. i wanted to make sure things were real sometimes and bleeding reminded me that i was still here. it was also a way of punishing myself because often times i felt like i was to blame for what happened to me. I never wanted anyone to know though, it was my way of forcing myself to live- i never had death in mind (and most cutters don't).
I moved away from TX, got psychiatric help and quit cutting. I have even forgiven my attackers now. I still have scars to remind me but I write instead now and just got accepted to a very good school for artistically gifted kids. I am athletic now too so i will put up more of a fight if there is a next time that i am attacked. Overall, I couldn't be happier...

Sorry if that was kind of a downer story- but it's my life and it does have a happy ending. I hope maybe some of you understand a little better now and i hope that those of you who do cut still will have the will- power to stop like i did, it doesn't help you.
 
Cutting yourself is fucked up. I HATE it when people do that. One of my exs did it a lot and it made me really sad... My last gf did it a few times, and my current gf did it until I had to fucking force her to stop... I mean wtf is cutting gunna do? Your depressed, sad, pissed off, then you decide to cut yourself and ADD to that pain. It just makes shit worse. Now your all depressed and shit AND you have a huge ass bleeding slit on your arm.

And tharuz shut the hell up I didn't even read your post and your pissing me off.
 
Yes, I happened to read this whole fucking topic, and it's bullshit.


People who cut themselves simply are suicidal, I don't care about all the Bullshit you give about relieving stress or how you try to make it sound like it's "The right thing" to do. It simply is fucking stupid and the person who does it really has problems.
 
Right, that's what I was trying to get across to Deez (unsuccessfully), these people are MENTALLY ILL, not ok, should be under a doctors care... NOT FRIGGIN' NORMAL...
 
itslike getting a tattoo, when the needle goes to work. your body starts to release a natural morphine. so about 10minutes in it dosent hurt so bad anymore almost feels good. thats how it was with me. i cut my self and just let my body kick in its natural morphine and it wasn't so bad.
 
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