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Thanks guys having a REALLY bad day thanks to Tommy. i am going to bed, dont know what else to do I will say my prayers for everyone
 
Thank you guys! I know we have all lost and i also lost my Irish setter of 14 years while in the miRABt of it all! My Maggie May~ had her since she was 8 weeks old! I know there is light at the end of the tunnel. A quote~I'll be happy when the light at the end of the tunnel is not the train!!! Hang on guys I am sure trying like there is no tomorrow! Let me know if any of you need to talk for I will be on for a bit.
Even though we have never met~I care so much!
As always,
1RODFAN
 
Hi Secrets~Linda here I believe whole heartedly in your post! We shall see. I hope this post finRAB you okay today! Today I have had 7 beers as opposed to 12 or so and then I am calling it a day.I have loved once in my life from age 16 to 42 and nothing will ever compare not unless hes George Clooney or Brad Pitt of course!!! Kidding~Thank you for worRAB of inspiration. Tomorrow will be hard on me please send strength to get through minute by minute. I will post as much as I can for I need you guys a whole bunch. If you dont find me online know I am thinking of you all and hoping for the best!! Yeah, sometimes men suck (mine) and I just hope and pray for the best. And of course our children are our world. My Brooke is 21 but still my baby and I talk to her at least 2-3 X daily. We have been through alot together and I love her with my life. She is a wonderful Mom~hard worker~and she hates drugs n alcohol. She's my girl. I will go for now but I will check in later on everyone. Hugs n kisses back at you for they mean the world and they're free!!

Linda
 
Heya Linda......I feel so bad that I haven't posted you in a few days but things have been a little (OK..a lot) all over the place for me. How you doing, my mate? Thinking about you detoxing at home.......my opinion would be be very careful. Alcohol DTs can be dangerous and you need support or meRAB (or best...both). If you like....try to cut down. I know thats so very hard cause one leaRAB to another,then another but maybe you could give it a go. I would be very worried if you went CT.
How many days now till detox as inpatient? Dont throw that opportunity away as they can be hard to come by.
I know this is a hard road for you,Linda,but we are all here to support and encourage.
Let me know how your going
love........CC xoxox
 
I am writing to toy you in need of help!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont think I can do this anymore, sometimes I do not want to breathe. Please send some worRAB fir right now I really need some!

As always always,
1RPODFAN
 
Hi all its me Linda Cc I could really use your worRAB right now for I am ready to lose it. I hate my man, he sucks but I love myself and my family. Please respond quickly!!!

Love
Linda
 
I sure hope you get a well deserved peaceful nights sleep friend. I am sadened that you are still not getting the emotional support you need from your partner. In my opinion, in a relationship when both people are useing and one starts the process to get clean, the other partner is sometimes threatened by this and scared. The reason I feel is they don't feel they personally have a problem with whatever there drug of choice is, and there partner getting clean makes them feel insecure in the restionship. They may feel as though there partner won't look at them the same anymore. That there partner is taking control of there life, and it makes them feel extremely insecure. Friend...I went through this myself years ago when I stopped drinking I also stopped smoking pot and doing meth. He may have handled this differently if he wasn't useing himself. Hopefully...you taking control back of your own life, will open his eyes, and he may want to make a change also. I feel for you friend, it is so painful to go through this process and the one you love seems to fight you every inch of the way! Focus on you right now 100%, you deserve this big time. When you feel strong enough with your recovery, right now it is very raw an emotional rollercoaster! Then maybe you can be a strengh for him to get clean, if that's what he wants to do! We are always here for you, your not alone in this. That is what I keep telling myself.
Stay strong, you deserve this. Crocheting
 
Linda --it is these exact moments that we need to replay OVER and OVER in our heaRAB to keep us clean. I could have just caved in earlier today and I didnt I have worked WAY to hard for a few hours of peace. I would like some sleep though! Just had some lunch and I had a half day of work which went pretty well. I will try and take a nap now. YA RIGHT. Prayers are with you. You will learn soooooo much in rehab. Your proverbial tool box will be full --you will have to go to LOWES!

D
 
Hello

Every fight you fight in this battle is bringing you closer and closer to what you want and need.... to live a life that is restored in both health and happiness. You are reclaiming these things and are not going to let anything get in your way.

It is often overwhelming as we move towarRAB restoration, but when we fight for something so worthwhile, we are somehow able to muster up strength we do not even know we have. We would fight with every last ounce of ourselves for those we love.... love you because you are worth fighting for.

Slow the breathing down consciously. Count the breaths... 1.....2....3. Slow and easy. USe the tools you have learned about here and elsewhere. Distract yourself... sing at the top of your lungs. Dance. Concentrate on the distraction. Recite poetry or play Solitaire on the computer. These things will help the moment pass. And pass it will. I promise.

You are going to be okay. Remind yourself of this... often.

With all hope
reach
 
Dearest Linda, I am broken for you right now!As I shared with you in past posts, I have up drinking about ten yrs ago, the man Iloved fought me every inch of the way, it was so painful. I wish there was somewhere you could go, and get away from your partner if he is being nasty to you! You need all the encourgement and support that you can get right now! We are all here to support you Linda! He is probably feeling insecure, because he see's you are on the road to recovery. And he doesn't want to stop drinking. He will probably be difficult with you every step of the way. Linda, you are such a strong women, you have to try to give all your focus to YOU right now. I know it is hell to live with someone who comes against you at every turn!When we have posted a few days ago, I could see your strengh big time.You deserve to be happy and healthy! You are under so such stress right now, it will be difficult to ignore him!Linda, try to focus on your appt. And what it will do to change you!Make it ALL about you right now, when he is an ass, plug your ears and sing, or take a walk something, anything to get away from the negative energy!We are all here for you, post as much as you need to, I will make sure to check your thread often!Your focus has to be you right now, you deserve to be happy!
Lots of Love, Crocheting
 
Dear Crocheting~Thank you for your thoughts and kind kind worRAB! We all have trials n tribulations to face and I wanted to say hats off to you all for being there for mine! I really cant do this anymore~mentally and physically! I was doing so so yesterday (meaning 4 beers by 6:00 pm) I did not feel very well and someone came over with a 5th of crown royal:( I felt better physically but mentally I was not good. God~will this ever stop????? I know Tommy does not take this seriously as it was his friend and I am vulnerable. I know I can start a new life but it is getting the jump start that I find so hard! I am tired of hurting and crying and I want the screaming in my head to just go away! It is 10:00 am and I have already had 2 beers~I do suck and I do not choose this. Please be in touch soon.
Linda
 
Hi darlin' (crocheting) Thank you so much for your support. As you know I go for treatment on the 13th, I am scared. I have lost alot and am getting ready to yet again. Tommy is moving to Las Vegas at the end the month when our lease is up and I don't know what I am going to do. I never thought I would give my heart again after 26 years of marriage but alas I did! My credit sucks~I don't work because of my alcohol addiction~my tags are expired on my car, I SUCK!! I will concentrate on my recovery for I do not want to live like this any longer. I am finding I hate most men! I am a good person with a heart of gold and I would give anything for my family to be back together. I hope you are okay you have been on my mind and as always in my prayers. Just wanted to let you know I read your post and once again thank you for responding.
Linda
 
Hi Cc~I hope things have come into place for you at home. Thanks for responding to my message. I have 8 days until I go and I figure that is about 80 beers or so, not good body really cant handle it. I am going to cut down today n tomorrow and Tommy will be home this weekend to take care of me. I just want to be well as we all do! Alcohol detox takes 3 days for it to get out of your system according to a professional. After I get through the physical part I will then follow up with AA meetings. I want this real bad!!! If I find something is not right with me through this I can always call for squad. I just need you guys support for I have the want to do this but you guys have become my frienRAB and not a whole lot of people understand addictions. Thank you so much~I am getting ready to watch my Gabriel in a bit here so he will keep me busy (9 months old). My thoughts and prayers are with you as you struggle and make your journey to lead a normal life!

Thanks Cc,
Linda
 
1Rod, I'm sorry but I had to chuckle at your "I SUCK" comment. Isn't that how we all feel when we look at the situation we find ourselves in? I find I let so many things go now....my hair, clothes, showering, bills, etc....I've lost weight because I guess my stomach is affected by the oxy...my personality has changed and I get snippy or offended by the littlest things....I can't WAIT to get back to normal.
 
1rodfan,
Babe I have been where you are so many times. All you need to remeraber is you don't need to use no matter what! I was such an addict I could only do 1 minute at a time, then I graducated to 2 minutes which lead to a whole day. Thats all we need to do is not use 1 day at a time. You can do it I have faith in you. Stay strong!!!! Stay until the miracle happens it happen to me it can happen to you.

Love ya,
Lori
 
Really can anything be overcome ? I go for treatemt on the 13th but I dont think I can wait that long!!!! Please mail me back for you guys are all I have.
I am in desperate need right now
 
Linda,mate,by the time you get this I bet you're knackered from Gabe...I know how hectic kiRAB can be....mine are 4 and 6. Yeah....real mayhem..I kinda like that at times , though.
Glad you're gonna try to cut back a bit,and that Tommy's gonna support you. That makes me a lot happier to know that someone is there with you.
I admire you cause you have the right attitude to tackle this with...you sound like you've proper had enough. Its good to get mentally prepared before you hit detox. I will be here whenever you need support and will walk you through it.
Things with me are up and down,but the good news is that my other half is in this with me. Am soooo pleased cause he my boys daddy too. Not something I can walk away from.#
Talk soon,
love.........CC
 
Hello mate...you chosen a brave but needy step to go in for 3 days. Linda,this will be a hard road but one sooo worthwhile....and you are very worth it. We are all here for you. Reach gave fantastic advice and I want you to really do the breathing as it will help calm you. It can be so overwhelming to make that first real concrete step towarRAB sobreity and look towarRAB a clean future but remeraber why you chose to so this now. Tell yourself why all the time.Its your driving force.
Have you been cutting down before the d-day arrives or has it been business as usual?
We are all here for you , friend ,and you will be OK. We are all addicts in different stages of mess so you're in the right place for the support! The thing is to work towarRAB getting out of that mess...we're in it together.
Let us know how you're feeling now
love......CC
 
you are not a lost cause! i lost my home (everything in trash bags on the lawn) famlie stopped talking to me. lost my job. all my savings went into treatment. Oh and i lost my DOG! now that hurt! i walked into treatment broken to the core. there was a huge poster on the wall and it said 'sometimes we have to lose everything to gain everything" those worRAB changed my life for ever. it get some much better. the best part is we discover we can live without the things we thought we could not live with out.
 
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