Life after opiates...

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Hey guys --thanks for the kind worRAB --SECRETS --WAY TO GO! Exercise is NEVER a bad thing and 45 pRAB will shed VERY quickly if its there to lose. remeraber --dont eat after 8pm! anyway, all of your worRAB are so kind. I spent almost 8 months in those NA rooms and learned ways to stay clean. Looking back, its the fact that I thought I DIDNT need NA anymore that I relapsed. Its those crazy thoughts that go through my head that turn into a reality, looking back I dont even remeraber when it happened! isnt that crazy. Relapse slowly rears its head back into your life. Well, I am very nervous about this whole week. wish me luck

D
 
Well thought I would chime in and give everyone an update. NA starts tonight for me. I have mixed emotions. Kind of anxious to see who will be there. I know that I was very happy when someone came back, but I was also disappointed in them. That is natural. I also have a DR appt coming up to do the WHOLE body check. I am worried that I have done damage to my body etc. I feel ok and still exercise each day hard, but I cant get that feeling out of my head that something is wrong! That may be a reason I escaped to the pills each night. I hope all of you are doing great today and are on the right track to health.

D
 
ok fullcircle.... reach down and grab em pard...man up and get your butt out there. your posts, your strength, got my tired butt goin. who's the tuff guy here? you or the devil? i know i aint goin down again.....and judgin by your posts..you SURE aint..... give it to em buddy!!
 
Heya D

I am so proud of you on two fronts.... NA and getting the body checked out by the doctor. Moving forward, man, moving forward. Great moves to alleviate lots of worry in both places.

I understand the nagging feeling that comes when we think something might be wrong.... always feel better when doctor says, "Nope." Smiles. Last time I saw my oncologist I had a lump on my leg. I just waited for the scheduled appointment... not because I wasn't worried, but because I just didn't want to face any bad news. Duh on me. When he asked me if I had any concerns, I burst out crying. We can shove worry down, but it is going to resurface somewhere at some time. So we scheduled the tests and it turned out to be nothing more than FAT! Haha. I can chuckle now, but I could have saved myself a lot of grief if I had gone when I first noticed and had my fear alleviated. So we live and learn, only to find out we have to live more cause there is more to learn.

NA... I know that the first meeting back will be emotional for you. That's okay, Buddy... it is good to feel emotion. It enriches our lives whether good or bad. And if it is bad emotion it propels us to seek the good again. All to the good.

Stay strong, stay balanced. When the feeling of being off-balanced strikes, THEN is the time to not go it alone but to seek help, reinforcement. We are none of us perfect at all.... it is just that those of us with a drug addiction stand out a bit. So what? In the end it does not matter the problem, but how we handle it that counts. How we fall is not important, how we stand is.

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good for you an dont let anything stop you from going this may be the biggest battle of your life .listen identify try not to compare keep an open mind . good luck i have been in recovery for a few years . went to a meeting tonight ya its nerve racking for awhile but once you get to know some of your fellow addicts .it gets better alot better .now you are free to do any thing you want except drink or drug safely .just for today i cant but we can. an if your young that much the better . i was 36 when i got clean an sober . i believe we all needed every drink an drug to get where were at today. oh you may want to get a sponcer , god does not make junk . man does:wave:
 
Hey the FullCircle! I'm going to attend my first NA meeting tonight. I'm anxious to see how it goes and I have a bunch of questions for them.

I'm not doing too good lately - no cravings which is good, but I still have the abdominal spasms that are getting worse. I mentioned them to my doctor when I went for my physical and he wasn't sure what was causing them, but said let's see what happens in a week. Well, a week is up and they are progressively getting worse. I'm not even sure they are part of the withdrawals or something entirely new that was being covered up while I was taking the Oxy. I have a call in to get another appt with the doctor and see what he suggests. I can't sleep with my wife anymore because the bed shakes so much and wakes her up. So, I was up all night and went to bed when she got up to go to work.

Let us know how your physical goes and your NA meeting. It will be interesting to see who is there and what they talk about. Good Luck!
 
Hey there :-) just want to say hi and i think you are awesome for going to N/A tonight even though you are feeling anxious about it!! It takes strength to go to something even when youre feeling like that so good on you! Good luck with the doctors tomorrow im sure it will all be well.
Take care rksn xox
 
Good for you.

I don't have any disappointments when I see somebody come back after a relapse. I feel disappointed when I find out that a friend has relapsed! However, deep down in my heart I know that it can just as easily have been me, given the nature of this insidious disease.

I'm betting that you'll get a warm welcome. You will have a lot to offer the still suffering addict with the wisdom gained from finding out where you went wrong, where the program didn't work. Other recovering addicts that have a lot of clean time will also want to help you find where the program didn't work. It might be as simple as not getting through that first step, setting up a reservation to use? Who knows. Your sponsor will help you find it.

Grab that white keytag--you earned it! After all, it is the hardest to get! It takes more courage to re-enter the rooms and admit that you have sturabled than it does to walk up and grab that first year. I have heard many addicts with years of clean time talk about relapsing and can see just how easily it happens when you let up your guard, just for one day.

I am very proud of you. Good job and good luck in your recovery.

mk
 
Hi guys --A few updates. Yesterday was a big day for me. I went back to NA and was welcomed with OPEN ARMS. I was very nervous walking BACK in after a 3 month hiatus, but the first thing that happened was a HUGE huge from about 3 people that I had got know over the 8 months before. I was nice. I also had to FAST for 12 hours so I could get all my blood work done today. didnt get much sleep last night, but felt good going to a DR appt clean and with a straight head (empty stomach!!). I am nervous about the results, but that is only natural. I need to start accepting change and become more open to things I cant control. That is it for now.

How are all of you doing?

D
 
Hey D,

I am so proud of you for going back to NA. That takes courage. More than I have at the moment.

Good luck with the doctors appointment! I hope everything checks out for you. You would be so proud of me.. I started a work out program. I am going to swim 3 nights a week at a local hotel pool! It's a start and it will help me shed these last 45 lbs! UGH.

Hope you are doing great! Chat with you more later!
 
NA is a great group, huh? I have made some really good frienRAB in the rooms. They would do 1000 more things to help me than any of my old "gettin loaded" buddies. I hope your lab work turns out ok.

mk
 
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