I'm depressed :(

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lillith25

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I don't know why...
Possibly because my girlfriend spent the day with some guy that I FUCKING DETEST for cheating on a few of my friends... Or possibly because there's thousands of thousands of people dropping dead in New Orleans, more homeless, and people fucking looting the place... Or because I've realized that the only meaning of life is to fucking work to make money for 40 years ... Or that my dad just turned 40 (I know this one a lot more of you can relate to, but I feel like shit...) which marks 2/3 or so of his life gone... I hate thinking that, but I've finally realized how short life is... I remember when my dad was 33 (I was 10) and we'd do all sorts of stuff together, and then now we do virtually nothing... The worst part is that I got him the only present he got for his 40th birthday :( It just makes me feel so horrible about myself... He told me "you'll be glad you did that" when I gave him it (it was a neon beer lamp that costed about 40 dollars) but now I feel like I'm milking my family whenever I ask for something...

I don't even want to feel this way about any of this shit... I want to trust my girlfriend, and I want to not care about New Orleans, and I want to be optimistic about my dad, but I can't convince myself to do so... I just feel like I want to go to therapy or something to fix the way I'm thinking...
 
I used to think like that long ago. For many years. Fuck it.

Getting off the Risperdal helped, but being an optimist myself, I can truly say I've never been happier. I only see the good side of people. People dig that.

Why look at the bad side when you can see the good instead and make new friends?
 
Boycott life is depressing, if you look at it. All I can say, and it helps me because I feel like you do, is to find things I DO like, and do them as much as possible. Twice a week for 4 or 5 hours, I get to hang with 2 different groups of guys, drinking, RPGing, playing Magic, shooting the shit, it's heaven on earth. If I didn't have that to look forward to, and plan for, I would be up shit creek. I NEED to have fun time. It's not a want, I'd go nuts.

So find something you like, and fucking do it. If that falls through, find something else you like and do That instead. Focus on doing some things you like, it makes a world of difference. Trust me, really.

I'm not saying the world is any less depressing, because it isn't. I truly believe this is Hell in the literal sense. Still, to keep sanity, you have to find your piece of goodness in it. That's the trick.
 
You're only 17, right? They don't call them the torublesome teens for nothing. You're hormones are out of wack, dude. You prolly masturbate, or don't masturbate, or think about masturbating or having an orgasm with your girlfriend.

You get really emotional, I can tell. You wasn't very nice to me when I first met you. You were a stuck up prick, I thought. Now I can see you're just a confused pre-pubescent boy with no manners or respect for anyone but his cock. Grow the fuck up and get a job!
 
Here's a tip, go to sleep. Sleep is my favorite pasttime, no worries. Ahhh sweet sweet sleep, how I love thee ::fondles sleep::
 
I have a job, and I'm not a stuck up prick, I just hate you. Any person who comes to wtf talking like a 25 year old wigger with your only posts being about getting high and dropping acid is on my bad side :thumbsup:

Thanks for the advice everyone... My friend wants me to get into Magic, so I may, or I might just hunt down a copy of battlefield for *MY* computer and start playing that again ... I'll see how it works out :)

And as for sleep - I love sleeping too ;) Its so relaxing
 
If you feel you're ready to do therapy then do it. It helps out a lot. Throwing that shit out there, hearing youself say things and then processing them is really enlightening.

Go for broke dude! :thumbsup:


As far as therapists go, make sure you click with the person. If it's not working out, don't settle.
 
You can't spend your life taking other people's worries upon yourself. It's hard enough to worry about what you actually HAVE to worry about in your own life. :hug2: I know how you feel though. I constantly have to remind myself not to get down on things that I can't control.
 
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