Im struggling with finances and went for a job at an erotic massage parlour (supposedly the best one in my city that does 'no extras' etc). When I turned up I was trained by a pretty lady with huge breast implants who did an erotic massage on me to show me how to do it - she was really nice and helpful to me as it was my first day.
She told us it was a 'fantasy' and that you just needed to fake confidence and an enthusiastic attitude. I have to say she was one of the best actresses I have ever seen because despite calling all the men 'desperate losers' she totally acted like she was happy to see them. I thought she was well groomed and really professional and was dressed in nice lingerie.
They told me I was going to start straight away and put me in a waiting room with 7 other girls. Only 2 of them were what I would call attractive and the others looked like the type of hookers you pick up on the side of the road. Two of them worked as prostitutes at their other jobs and were just casually talking about all the clients they had sex with like they were so jaded about sex it meant nothing to them. Most of the other girls worked at other massage parlours and were below average looking, didnt brush their hair and werent even wearing nice underwear despite the fact it was supposed to be high class. They talked about how they were treated badly by men in real life and most of them didnt have boyfriends.
Then i had to do a 'line up' - basically whenever a new customer comes all the girls go and meet him in skimpy underwear and have to introduce themselves. Over 5 hours none of the guys chose me and some guys even walked out because they didnt like any of the girls. I was really down - even though I had only been rejected by desperate guys (well only one of the guys seemed normal). I just felt like i couldnt go through with subjecting myself to being judged like that again. Im very sensitive about my looks and i didnt take it very well.
I was also so depressed by some of the girls - it was supposed to be a 'high class' establishment but most of girls had no other jobs except ones in the sex industry. They did not feel sexy or beautiful (most of them) they seemed to mostly have no self esteem whatsoever and feel completely hopeless. I do not want to go back. I didnt realise erotic massage parlours were just like being a hooker with the whole 'line up' and that most of the girls who worked at them were below average looking and looked badly groomed.
Any advice for me about how i can deal with this?
The only girl who seemed to be able to seperate herself from the job and was 'together' enough to handle it was the girl that trained me
She told us it was a 'fantasy' and that you just needed to fake confidence and an enthusiastic attitude. I have to say she was one of the best actresses I have ever seen because despite calling all the men 'desperate losers' she totally acted like she was happy to see them. I thought she was well groomed and really professional and was dressed in nice lingerie.
They told me I was going to start straight away and put me in a waiting room with 7 other girls. Only 2 of them were what I would call attractive and the others looked like the type of hookers you pick up on the side of the road. Two of them worked as prostitutes at their other jobs and were just casually talking about all the clients they had sex with like they were so jaded about sex it meant nothing to them. Most of the other girls worked at other massage parlours and were below average looking, didnt brush their hair and werent even wearing nice underwear despite the fact it was supposed to be high class. They talked about how they were treated badly by men in real life and most of them didnt have boyfriends.
Then i had to do a 'line up' - basically whenever a new customer comes all the girls go and meet him in skimpy underwear and have to introduce themselves. Over 5 hours none of the guys chose me and some guys even walked out because they didnt like any of the girls. I was really down - even though I had only been rejected by desperate guys (well only one of the guys seemed normal). I just felt like i couldnt go through with subjecting myself to being judged like that again. Im very sensitive about my looks and i didnt take it very well.
I was also so depressed by some of the girls - it was supposed to be a 'high class' establishment but most of girls had no other jobs except ones in the sex industry. They did not feel sexy or beautiful (most of them) they seemed to mostly have no self esteem whatsoever and feel completely hopeless. I do not want to go back. I didnt realise erotic massage parlours were just like being a hooker with the whole 'line up' and that most of the girls who worked at them were below average looking and looked badly groomed.
Any advice for me about how i can deal with this?
The only girl who seemed to be able to seperate herself from the job and was 'together' enough to handle it was the girl that trained me