I realize that I have no ambition or discipline. I am a college student and I have received failing grades in a few of my classes. Not only have I failed myself, I have failed my parents who give me not only the necessary accommodations such as shelter and food, but also pay the interest to my school loan. I always half ass everything. I'm like a dud firework, I start aglow only to fizzle out halfway. See my parents disapprove of war and I couldn't stand to tell them of my potential death. But I feel that in a no fail environment such as war i'll be forced to change. Because I can't change on my own, I have tried and failed too many times on that note. Thank you.