I am going in for a tonsillectomy on 12/8/08 and I am scarred to death of the anesthesia more then the pain I will have afterward. I am going to be 35 on the 4th and 4 days later I will be having the first surgery of my life. I have all these crazy thoughts going through my head about what bad things could happen to me including not waking up again!
Am I worrying for nothing or do I have valid reason to? I am afraid of things like waking up as a vegetable. I have put this surgery off for years but my sleep apenea has gotten worse and I have already had a heart disease scare so I finally made the decision to go and do it and I just can't wait till it is over and I am waking up from it. I am praying everything will go perfect as it can. Everybody keeps saying I am going to be in a lot of pain, I tell them I just want to be alive to feel that pain. They say be careful what you wish for....lol
Please help me get through this. I feel like oh it is far off I have time but then time is flying but then again I just want it to rush here and just be over!

Please help me get through this. I feel like oh it is far off I have time but then time is flying but then again I just want it to rush here and just be over!