I am seriously tired of all the crap that has been going on lately. I am really not looking for any advice, I just need to tell someone before I go on a damn roid rage.
What I have done to my parents, is beyond me. I am never allowed to do anything, at all. The most I am allowed to do is either use my computer, or sit in my room and play my Xbox my whole life. I mean, they have severely pulled me from all social activities. I cant talk to anyone, except for a few people, without being the quiet one or the one you don't notice. In school, I sit in the corner and don't speak or look at anyone. I think it is because I have been separated from everyone and everything, I dont even have the will-power to pull my self back to what I can, or should be.
This is how bad it is. I have been treated like this for so long, that when I am offered to do something, I just simply refuse. I think I am to the point that it dosent matter what I do, I dont think it is going to change. I have tried talking to my parents, convincing, and everything on the damn list to be allowed to converse and have a social life. But nothing ever works. Because of right now, there really isnt much of it.
I dont know how to come out of it. God help me when I am on my own, because the way I am raised, I dont think I will be able to cope with any challenge at all.
Me and a friend were talking about this, and I brought up the whole ordeal about counseuling. Maybe he thought I was kidding, but I think I do need some, not alot, but some. I am really not expecting any advice, but I just needed to let it out.
I just feel a little better now because people know that it is not all my fault ( some will probably disagree ). I dont want to be like this, but it seems that I dont have the choice right now.
What I have done to my parents, is beyond me. I am never allowed to do anything, at all. The most I am allowed to do is either use my computer, or sit in my room and play my Xbox my whole life. I mean, they have severely pulled me from all social activities. I cant talk to anyone, except for a few people, without being the quiet one or the one you don't notice. In school, I sit in the corner and don't speak or look at anyone. I think it is because I have been separated from everyone and everything, I dont even have the will-power to pull my self back to what I can, or should be.
This is how bad it is. I have been treated like this for so long, that when I am offered to do something, I just simply refuse. I think I am to the point that it dosent matter what I do, I dont think it is going to change. I have tried talking to my parents, convincing, and everything on the damn list to be allowed to converse and have a social life. But nothing ever works. Because of right now, there really isnt much of it.
I dont know how to come out of it. God help me when I am on my own, because the way I am raised, I dont think I will be able to cope with any challenge at all.
Me and a friend were talking about this, and I brought up the whole ordeal about counseuling. Maybe he thought I was kidding, but I think I do need some, not alot, but some. I am really not expecting any advice, but I just needed to let it out.
I just feel a little better now because people know that it is not all my fault ( some will probably disagree ). I dont want to be like this, but it seems that I dont have the choice right now.