no fear 13
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Hey whoever is reading this...
since this is basically anonymous can i ask you a favor? I need some help.
I'm 14 and my dad has raped me 3 times that i remember when i was 13. He most likely raped me more times than that but he slipped stuff in my drink so I don't recall it all. My parents are divorced and have been for a while, and yes my mom knows.
I'm having so much trouble holding myself together. Antidepressants aren't working and I'm terribly suicidal. I live in fear of my dad. I have nightmares every night andI have awful flashbacks that come up at random times, like in class, and i have a panic attack and start crying some of the time. I can't get the image of him out of my head: in my bed, him with his shirt off, my pants off, and him pushing his dick into my vagina. I was out of it from the pills he slipped me, i was laying there screaming and crying, but i couldn't do anything since i was only half conscious.
My mom is very self centered and only cares about herself. So the only people i can reach out to are my 2 brothers in their 20's and 30's(who live halfway across the US) and my friends(who are too immature to handle something so frightening). My sister (30) and my mom are both self centered hypochondriacs that believe that all the stress is on them when my dad didn't harm them. I get that they are upset but shouldn't they also care about me?
please help me!!
especially with my depression problems.
Thank you so much!
I'm really sorry if I'm being ridiculous or something!
All responses are appreciated
but please don't hate.
I love you so much for caring enough to read this!!
Thanks again
since this is basically anonymous can i ask you a favor? I need some help.
I'm 14 and my dad has raped me 3 times that i remember when i was 13. He most likely raped me more times than that but he slipped stuff in my drink so I don't recall it all. My parents are divorced and have been for a while, and yes my mom knows.
I'm having so much trouble holding myself together. Antidepressants aren't working and I'm terribly suicidal. I live in fear of my dad. I have nightmares every night andI have awful flashbacks that come up at random times, like in class, and i have a panic attack and start crying some of the time. I can't get the image of him out of my head: in my bed, him with his shirt off, my pants off, and him pushing his dick into my vagina. I was out of it from the pills he slipped me, i was laying there screaming and crying, but i couldn't do anything since i was only half conscious.
My mom is very self centered and only cares about herself. So the only people i can reach out to are my 2 brothers in their 20's and 30's(who live halfway across the US) and my friends(who are too immature to handle something so frightening). My sister (30) and my mom are both self centered hypochondriacs that believe that all the stress is on them when my dad didn't harm them. I get that they are upset but shouldn't they also care about me?
please help me!!
especially with my depression problems.
Thank you so much!
I'm really sorry if I'm being ridiculous or something!
All responses are appreciated
but please don't hate.
I love you so much for caring enough to read this!!
Thanks again