Another ramble from me:)

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Hello friend :)

You have definitely come a long way since your first post. Wow, have you ever! One day, you're going to have to gather the courage to look at those earlier posts. When you do, just remerabe how far you've come. It's ok to look at your past, in fact, it's a wise thing to do, as it allows us to see who we used to be (and remind us that we can never go back there). Hiding from the past will not make it go away. Grasping it will make you stronger.

Shame vs. guilt - In rehab, I had alot of shame. I couldn't look myself in the mirror, as I was ashamed of the person I had become. My counsellors explained that addiction is a disease, and I should never be ashamed of it. They also told me that it's ok to feel guilt, cause we look into our past and see the things we've done. Once I was able to let go of the shame and accept the guilt, then and only then, was I able to forgive myself.

It is wonderful that you don't have any cravings, even though you know there are pills in the house :) I'm proud of you! You have definitely turned a corner. One thing I learned in NA is that you can't be cocky. I was so proud of myself and assumed that because I didn't have any cravings, I'd never ever use again. Well, I learned very quickly that us addicts have to be vigilante ALL the time. It's perfectly ok to be proud, however we still have to protect ourselves and that includes evaluating our lives each and every day. Remeraber what you're thankful for. Make a gratitude list every. You may not be able to overcome your addiction, but you can arrest it one day at a time :)

I hope you enjoyed your weekend and had some time to rest. I know you've been crazy-busy at work lately. Addicts have to be selfish sometimes and allocate "me time" every now and then :)

Have a great day,
Your friend,
emsmom
 
hi secerets , hope all is well you are so cool , ya man ha:p:wave::) its so nice to see you growing like a flower , its true recovery has to come first , an if we dont forget that , every thing else will fall into place , i would like to put my motorcycle first , but then again when i was drunk all the time i did not have 1 , thank god as we can see how easy it is to die sober , we never know whats going to happen tomowrow , so lets cherish today together , just remeraber your #1 an dont foget it , dont get me wrong, i still need to work on this 1day at a time, an i have the rest of my life to do so , we will allways be ill to some point , but we put it in handcuRAB an say your under arrest ha ha ha , we have to laugh, offten they say that 10 minutes a day , helps our soul , good for you , all work an no play makes jane a dull girl
 
yes there is many excuses but few reasons. emergency in the family sick or dead . are the only reasons thats why i go to my home group 99% of the time , we have to give back what was so freely given an not alot of us ever see this ,because addicts are self centerd. its all about them:)an it is truely terrible that alot of folks that get the gift dont realize how much we need them .oh i can do it on my own. that is what happens to alot of people they stop going to meetings.personaly for me, i dont think i could have a program of recovery without them . we are also isolaters an that is what keeps alot of people away .i need daily interaction. in person with other addicts ,not just the computer , other than some who are disabled an have no other choise . in that aspect its wonderful, like alot of the people that read these posts you could see 50 replys an 1000 views , most people dont realize how self centered they are untill someone tells them. im not saying you are but i am not afraid to say that 950 of them likely are.people that do service work i like to call us the few the proud. an we are not marines ,we have just not forgot what was so freely given to us, a recovering addict knows more about the the person they work with the newcomer they just need to be educated
 
hi secrets. deep breath this to shall pass , proper rest is esental , its a must , it sounRAB like you might be a workoholic . i tell guys that i sponcer to try not to work over 40 hrs a week , lots of meetings are they recovery ask your self what is the single most important thing in you life right now, holt stanRAB for hungry angry lonley tired ,an we can not afford this ,just remeraber your worth it . i hope you have a great restful weekend scotty:):p:wave: im diggin at ya only to try to help though
 
try to remeraber you are just getting clean an it takes time , you should post on your thread when you have cravings , so we can help , try to consetrate on helping yourself first. so you can better help others, your recovery has to be #1 above everything else ,me to of cource my recovery has to come before my family , an yes evan my bike ha ha ha . i have noticed this trate of helping others first not good . stop people pleaseing , have a good day , just a little tough love from scott:wave::)
 
Hi Secrets,

"Anything you put in front of your recovery, you'll eventually lose anyway."

My sponsor told me that when I returned home from Rehab. Early in my recovery, I had no clue what to do. I needed guidance. I took the tools I learned in Rehab and used them in every day life. This program I am attending now is just icing on the cake :) Your head is very foggy when you're tapering off drugs, so I find I am more alert this time around.

Addicts have to keep themselves busy - busy doing things that fill up our day and replace thoughts of using with work, time with frienRAB/family, extracirricular activities etc. However, if you are doing so much that you are stressed out and craving, it's time to reaccess our lives. Ask yourself, what can I do to make my life less complicated? I am craving my drug of choice cause I am exhausted - what can I do to change this?

Make time this weekend to relax - have some "me time." Even if it means going for a drive while your family is preparing a meal, or take a short walk to clear your head. Addicts have to be selfish in their recovery - it's the only way we can assure a positive outcome :)

Talk to you soon ;)
emsmom
 
hay wake up , have not heard from you lately hah ha :)ha hows the new lawn mower work :wave:
 
Thanks Emsmom!

You are right! I will make some time for myself thsi weekend sometime I promise! You guys are right. A person neeRAB to put their recovery first.

I am so happy for you that your program is going so well. What a blessing that is! You certainly deserve it!!!!

I hope you have a Blessed Mothers Day friend!
XOXOXOXOX
 
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