addicted to Percocet Somebody please help me.

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I am addicted to Percocet and Hydrocodone really bad...

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I don't know what to do. I have everything to live for...2 wonderful children, each with a new baby girl...I am a grandma twice in the last year. I am so sick and I don't want to die but I don't know where to turn.

Everytime I go to my doctor I want to tell him so bad but I just can't bring myself to tell him. I can't imagine my life without my pain medicine. My doctor gave me 150 Percocets June 26th and I counted them today, June 30th, and I have 50 left. I do at least 300 pills a month...what am I going to do. I can't type anymore...the tears are streaming down my face. Somebody please help me.
 
good morning everyone, i just want to say how helpful and caring everyone on here is, outsandiing support, c in my case i cant talk to anyone because of my situation, my hubby is a dr. and live in a small town so i feel trapped, word gets out and i am a dark horse, but my hubby is very supportive and knows the deal he used yrs ago has been clean for 7yrs now and wants the same for me, but i have to do it quitetly, like i cant even talk to my dr. cause hes a good friend of ours, so i am on my own and trying very hard to do this, i started tapering last wk and so far so good, i have hight hopes i can do this cause i havent bought anything for a wk now (saved lots of money already), but near the end and feeling good but i am scared something might happen and go back but i have done so well on my own this wk , so determined to do this and please pray that i can do it cause i have only my hubby to talk to and now u guys thank god for that.l..ty for reading my story...
 
HI Lisa! I just want to say how lucky I think you are for finding this board prior to choosing to quit. Just watching the others in here post the withdrawals, and what they have done to help get through it, may be a big help for you when you choose to say "I'm done".

Even though you think people don't know, I would probably bet they have some idea that you are different now then how you were in the past (prior to using Perc).

I am on Day 4 of my W/D, and though I say I'm done with Lortabs, its no guarantee. I totally understand your love hate relationship. Opiates are a fabulous killer of pain... Physically and Emotionally.

Feel free to contact me anytime if you need an online friend!

Good luck on your journey. ;)
 
Lisa-

I have been an alcoholic since age 18 - I am 51.I have a loving husband, 2 grown daughters, and a lot of people who love me.I have always been very responsible, a model employee, etc. I have tried the past year to quit - AA, herbal remedies, etc. I was sober for 2 weeks, then drank too much and got my first DUI.I finally decided to admit my addiction and told my parents, my close frienRAB, my boss and the women in my Bible Study class at church what was going on.I was shocked at the love and support I received from everyone! It made it so much easier - you see, I was highly functining and people were shocked that I had any problems.I went to court and was sentenced to 4 days in the county jail. It was the worst 4 days of my life, but the best 4 days of my life because it saved my life. I have been sober for 28 days - may not seem like much, but it is the longest I have been sober for 3o years.It feels great to be able to remeraber what I actually did the night before, not to worry about someone finding my stash of booze, and not to have my husband angry with me for getting drunk. Once you get past the thought that you are not using again, your life will change drastically. But only when YOU decide to change will that change take place. I will hold you in my prayers and have my Bible Study class pray for you. I read a quote by Georg Elliott that siad " It is never too late to be who you might have been". I am going to go back to school .
 
Hi Lisa,

It felt good to get it out, didn't it;)
I've never confessed to anyone, except for the people on these boarRAB, of my addictive behavior. I have not been able to jump that hurdle and tell someone.

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad right now. Realizing you're an addict is hard and withdrawals - well you know how you feel. I hope the good cry helped. Just try to calm yourself down. Hot bath, cup of hot tea, plop your butt down in the most comfortable place in the house and massage your muscles.

You will feel better soon and kick this addiction. It can be very lonely trying to do this yourself. I hope you get some rest tonight and seek some help in the coming days.

Best wishes,

JB
 
Lisa,

As Mecan said, I, too, fear the worst. I'm usually a positive person but you're last post terrified me and I've been checking in daily to see if you're OK. I don't like that you haven't written...it scares me.

I hope you know how much support you have here. Please write back, even if a short note, if you are able. We would all like to know how you're doing and want to try and help in any way we can. WorRAB are powerful, frienRAB are powerful...faith is powerful. You CAN beat this with treatment!

God be with you. Many, many prayers and hugs coming your way.

A~

:angel:
 
Lisa,

You are not alone. Many of us have been where you are now. Please know you can get off the drugs. You are on alot of pain meRAB. Please have an honest talk with your doctor TODAY. I will keep you in my prayers.
Mariecan
 
hi lisa,

my name is kelly, i am a recovering alcoholic and i read the addiction and recovery boarRAB and quite often. i know your drug of choice is not alcohol but addiction is addiction and we all are in the same battle so when i read your post ...i just had to reply and tell you, that i also will support you in any way i can!!!

this is a fantastic group of people that you have found here!!

i actually take norco 10/325 4-5 times a day for chronic pain...so i can kind of relate to the drugs....i think percocet is stronger than norco but anyway...i can see where it could be a problem if your not careful (me i mean) especially with my addiction history.

lisa....you have taken the first step...you have admitted you are powerless over the drug...that was the hardest step for me, and you did it!!

did you get a chance to talk with your dr. yet?? i also went to an addictions counselor who was in recovery himself and he helped more than i could have ever imagined!!

keep is posted and let us know what we can do to help....the support and love and honesty one addict has for another has truly amazed me...we need you as much as you need us!!!!!

much love..and prayers....kelly
 
hi. I have 152 days clean from nearly 22 years which is half my life addicted to opiates and benzo's. While my bottom was not anything like I had heard about from others , I just woke up one day tired of feeling sick and tired. What started out ad treatment for anxiety and migraines, turned into a dollar coaster of vicodan, percodan, ultram,fioricet,Xanax,klonopin,Ativan,codeine cough medicine, and mixtures of the above. I went into rehab in march, originally to detox from the benzo'd as I detoxed myself off the opiates. Then I decided I needed the 28 days. It changed my life, and while it is much harder than I thought, it is worth it. I am on vacation in Paris at the moment, and woke up with a migraine yesterday. The chemist wanted so badly to push codeine on me, I finally got her to give me aspirin with caffeine, and it worked. I then goigled non opiate pain medecine, and wound up here. There are so few alternatives to opiates! Toradol is terrible for you I am told. It works, but can lead to renal failureand can sometimes mimic opiates in causing the trigger. What seems to work for me has been advil, Tylenol 2 and 2 for a severe pain, or zomig if I catch the migraine in time. I recently started taking topomax which is supposed to prevent migraines, so well see........ I go to meetings not daily but at least 2 x a week. I have 2 frienRAB from rehab whom I speak with everyday, and we keep each other sober.
 
lizs, I to am a grandmother and have done hydros for years and have took as many as 10 a day I am wd right now and have maybe 2 left i have broke them in half so I do know how you feel. Right now I am shaking and my heart is racing and I feel like the lowest human in the world. I have no advice for you but want you to know I really care and pray for you and like you I wonder how i can stand this. You are not alone and you sound like I do because I have alot to live for. We will do this and maybe if you tell your Dr he will maybe put you on a taper plan. Please hang in there, you are in my prayers and keep me in yours LOL fiesty
 
Hi Lisa, my name is Brandi and I'm a recovering addict of pain pills.. Lortab and Methadone. I know the fear and depression and the pain you are feeling.. you NEED TO KEEP POSTING.. your last post was scary.. how are you doing? Let us hear from you. There are quite a few options out there for people like us. Maybe one route you want to look into is Suboxone/Subutex. It saved me.

Let us know how you are!!

g8trgrl
 
I am going to bed now...not real sure when I will be on again...I am so tired and so "sick and tired". I have been hallucinating most of the day from lack of sleep.

I pay to feel this way...my addiction...I hate it.

I have, both, my feet on ice packs...it is the drug trying to come out of my feet...it happens everytime when I do a considerable amount of it. They are so red and burning up and just about every mucles in my body is hurting.

I, did, get some information on a detox center about 20 miles south of my home and I am going to check on that after I rest.

I am, also, going to call my doctor now that this is over.

See you all when I rise...the Lord willing. I have been talking to the Lord alot today.

I will pray for all of you before I sleep.

Love and Support,
Lisa
 
I had the worst addiction to hydrocodiene.I am a straight A student that graduated with straight A's that year. was hooked from the first pill.I took in the upwarRAB of 20 aday (Depending on the milligrams)I have never tried any other drugs but this got me for 10 hard years.I went to atleast 10 or more rehabs and nothing worked.I couldnt function without my pain pills.I thank God that its finally in my past. I also went to jail for calling in prescriptions for myself.I still cant believe that I did that.My liver shut down.I heard about Methadone alot but never tried it.Then I went to an opiate recovery progam and they put me on a low dose of methadone and for the first time ever, I have been a functioning memeber of society for three years.My life is great.Everybody loves to be around me now and I am slowly coming off of Methadone with no problems.I would never let them increase my medication like some people do and thats what helped me.I have heard horror stories abaout methadone but my story hasnt been a horror.Also Its thanks to God first that I have my life back and I will pray for you.:angel:
 
Lisa,
A big hug to you first of all. The question is now what? Did you call your doctor today?
Being honest with your physician can make all the difference. Please think about taking that leap. I know its scary. I really dont know what kind of pain your in but you can be honest with your doctor, tell him how you feel, how these pills are affecting you. As you read alot of life stories on this board you will find most people had very supportive doctors. Please think about it. I am very worried for you.
Keep us updated, we are right by your side.
Mariecan

PS- read dorskins journey- "off oxy 3 days" I just commented on his story so it should be close to the start.
 
Good Afternoon My FrienRAB,
First, I want to say congrats to, reach, for your one year+ of sobriety. I, also, want to thank you for your suggestion concerning the telling my doctor.

dorskin, you are, absolutely, right about the fears that I am feeling right now. My worst fear is the w/d's and the second is the fear of living without my pills.

granny, I am so grateful to have found the board and to have made so many frienRAB that, truely, care and lend so much of their support to me.

To emsmom, you are in my thoughts and prayers all the time. I think of you often.
I, actually, have been to a rehab center very similar to the one you will be going to. I went back in 2004 for their thirty day program for my addiction to cocaine. I stayed clean for about 30 days.

To dorskin, how caring and supporting of you to take a minute from your lunch break to check in on me. I can't even explain to you how just a "check in" makes me feel so cared about. I have felt nothing but care and support from ALL my new frienRAB on the board.
A sincere "Thank You" to ALL my FrienRAB!

I felt really rough when I woke up about 2:00 today...nothing new to me thou...I knew I would...I always do after the three or four day thing. How sick is that, to know how you will feel and do it anyway. So Sick Am I.

I am sure you know what I did before I could even think about getting out of the bed.
I took my pain meRAB and, well, you know.....now I feel great.
Such a love/hate relationship.

Last night, before I layed down, the bottoms of my feet where burning like fire and blood red. When I woke up today my feet were swolllen really bad and still somewhat red but once again I knew what was going to happen...it always does. Sick.

Before, I literally passed out last night (actually this morning about 4:00am) I did some reasearch on detox centers in my area and I found one that sounRAB pretty good but I am still going to do some research on their methoRAB.
I, too, would really appreciate some input from all of you.
It is call Accelerated Detoxification Technique (ADT).
This is what I know thus far about it. It is an out-patient, 3to 4 day, accelerated opiate detox. They use heavy sedation and upon completion of your detox, you go home with a "Naltrexone" implant. I am going to do further reasearch on their site and will let you all know what I find. Like I said, I would really appreciate your knowledge/feedback on this too.

My frienRAB, as you can imagine, I am starving! I am going to fix some dinner and I will be on later.

Love you guys
Lisa
 
hi...I am also addicted to percocet, but not at as high of a dose. I am tapering and using the detox plan. I don't think you are going to truly get over this hump til you go into treatment. i don't know what kind you need, but sitting in lirabo is hell. I am also an ex-cocaine addict so i know about the staying up for days and wanting to come down but not able to stop doing the coke. Anyway, i am up if you want to talk.
Rosebuddy
 
Hi there Lisa. I thought about doing that rapid detox when I was on day2-3. I was feeling terrible and was looking for a way out. My mom gave me some good advice and I'm just going to throw it out there, see what you think.

She said to not do the rapid detox, but go through it. We learn from our experiences and this will teach you a lot. When I think of using again my mind drifts to the pain, sickness and the runs. NEVER AGAIN I think its a great way to think about drugs and where you head is at the end. If you go to sleep and wake up clean you are left with the mind games. The ease of getting clean might leave you thinking that this is a "manageable" disease and that scares me. Take care of yourself and drink you water.

This is what is helping me in my recovery and is just my opinion. I wonder what others think.

Good luck girl

d
 
Good morning Lisa, how you feeling today?? Its great to hear you want to win this fight and I hope you do. Its a tough road getting clean so I wish you the best of luck. Let us know whats going on and we will help in anyway we can.

Take care
d
 
Lisa, good morning.

You are definetly not alone here. There are many of us here who have been through the same thing you are going thru right now.
You have come to a good place to get information and support.
Start reading posts here. get some good informative info from others here.
I know you're scared, but it might be a great idea to talk to your doctor about this. Sometimes, to let things like this out can be a great weight lifted from your shoulders.

Keep posting.

jerry.
 
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