addicted to Percocet Somebody please help me.

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well i,ll say this-

it is so easy to get those doses reallly high and not evan get the minimal relief we originally sought. this is what i do, ont he 4th week, a week before my next pm visit i titrate down to 0 to lower my resisitance. this has kept me at the same dose and is working well. I take 100mg mscontin er twice day w 10/325 percoset for bt pain, i find by letting the meRAB leave my system for a few days to e very beneficial to my pain relif in all as i do not want to take anything stronger. its a medical fact you will become tolerant but i dont believe a higher dose is the answer. if you deviate from folling the presrcibed dose and take more you will be in trouble quick. by doing this method i am able to have a few days of unused med for a rainy day.

best wishes
 
hi all -
just started reading this thread. Has anyone heard from Lisa? Lisa if you are reading this, i hope you are ok! your story really moved me and also made me worry and want to help. i posted a version of my update in another chain, but here is a lil bit of my story too....
I, too, have a mean percocet addiction of several years... 6 maybe? maybe more.. im also a chronic pain patient (im 35) due to migraines and degenerative disk disease and i fell into the trap of eventually taking them cause they feel good not just for my pain. I usually blow through my script like u... i get 150 of the perc 10/325 and they are gone in like 2 weeks and then when i actually need them for a pain situation, they are gone. it's no way to live.
i just got my week sober... but then injured my back. i actually waited a week, took no pills or anything and then finally got cortizone shots to help with the pain (and more so to help with the amount of pills i knew i'd have to take as the pain has just gotten worse). The past 3 days I have had to take a small amount of pills when the pain has just gotten to be too much so i can physically function (i am moving and am in the middle of packing). BUT i am actually controlling my intake cause i have finally had enough. And boy is it HARD to not take more than what i need for the pain, but i just have to keep my head on straight. for me, i reached a point where i had enough, it just clicked in my brain where i just felt sick of being sick and out of control. where i just need to be sober. you can give yourself that power back too sweetie. it's a hard road for sure, but it gets easier and surely enRAB up easier than the place you were in when you initially posted.

you sound like you have the desire too, to change things up. just fear is stopping you, which i'll bet everyone on this board has had to struggle with especially as they take those first steps. you are not alone. not at all. and you shouldn't feel ashamed. these things happen... and they can happen to good people, hon! so dont get down on yourself. none of us should.
I've also used coke while on pills (i dont think i've admitted that to the board yet)... i dont have an issue with it like what i have happening with the percs... but if im intoxicated, i'll do it and do it til it's gone. no matter how much is there. i try to avoid places where it is but the only thing that SUPER keeps that in check for me is my fiance who HATES coke and basically forbiRAB me to do it... especially while i struggle with pills since that mix is so dangerous. i didn't like admitting that, but it does feel good. and i'm sure it will help with my recovery.
please post and let us know if you are ok. all of us struggle, have erabarrassments, fall off the horse etc... but this board is really lovely because so many people care and will be there for you through and give you great advice. they have all been through it too, so you dont have to feel alone. sometimes when i feel alone or scared, i post or just read the board to help me focus on my goal. especially now while i try hard not to abuse my meRAB right now and stop them as soon as I can.
it's never too late to look back into that center you found, or to tell your doctor, or delete contacts from your phone so it's harder to get drugs. All this is easier said than done, but as you take these little steps things WILL get easier andn your steps will eventuallly grow larger and more confident. and that feeling (as cheesy as it sounRAB) is better than any drug... when you start to get back into the world again. that's a fantastic high, i promise. keep taking steps to get there.:)
if you can, let this board help give you some strength.
thinking of you! (sorry i rarabled... looks like i needed to get some things off my chest too. :)
be safe
wendy88
 
Lisa,

Please write us a quick note to let us know how you're doing. I think of you daily!!

Angel hugs,

:angel:
 
Hello to ALL that have shown their Care and Support for me.
I have not posted for quite awhile due to my, out of control, active addiction. I am worse and sick than ever.
I am, definitly, not in a sane state of mind as of this posting.
How attractive am I?
I have been up since Thursday (other than passing out in the computer chair for how long? I don't even know.
Since Thursday I have experienced all of the following.
I have woke up in the computer chair with stem in hand and stuff all over the table and floor and continued on.
I have woke up in the bed with everything laying right beside me and continued on.
My baby, Min Pin, even woke me up when I dosed off in the chair...and once again...I continue on. What???
I don't know what day or time it is unless I look at the corner of my computer.
I have started to halucinate...I know this is from lack of sleep...been here before.
I have not answered my phone in 4 days.
Now let's throw in the rest of my sick addictions...percocets...wine...xanax and anything else I can do.
I sit here thinking about how much I should seek help and in the same thought calling for delivery.
I, also, wonder why am I doing this.

Pray for me
Love you guys,
Theresa
 
Hey Lisa, just checking in to see how you are doing?? Hope you had a great 4th and things are going well.

BIG HUG
d
 
Addiction is a terrible disease - people who have never dealt with it do not understand it.I was a highly functioning alcoholic for32 years.I hid it well from everyone(except my family, WHO i HURT SO MANY TIMES BECAUSE OF IT).The day I was arrested for DUI I was almost 3 time over the limit.How easily I could have killed someone or myself. It was the best thing that ever happened to me - it forced me to deal with my alcoholism.
But you will find that once you are off the addictive substance for 30 days, you feel like a new person!And the funny thing is that you can not believe how good it feels to be sober! I always dreaded the thought of life without alcohol.
Now I wish I had stopped years ago.I am back in school and studying for Hospice nursing.
Get with your doctor- trust me, they have many cases like this and if you have a good doctor will do everything to help you. You can do this - we are are pulling for you and I am praying for you!YOU CAN DO IT
 
I was taking 20-30 10 mg Percocets for the last year of a five year addiction. I recently (56 days ago) went to my Primary care Doctor and told her what was going on. She referred me to an addiction Doctor and he started me on Suboxone. Now, there are a lot of stories about coming off Suboxone, but honestly, I have so much relief from it. No more counting pills and dreading running out, no more feeling sick when I run out, no more lying to get pills, no more waiting for hours in ER's or Urgen Dare Clinics for pills and most of all I'm starting to feel like myself again. My program is a long program that will last months and I will be tapered very slowly. I am also in counseling that has been fantastic as well. Your Doctor will NOT be angry or judgemental and will want to do everything they can to help you. My PC cals me once per week to see how I'm doing. Don't be scared, just take the leap and you will be on your way to getting out of your misery. Good luck and don't hesitate to ask for any more help.
 
There are some really good tips on how to prepare to withdraw on this site. I was addicted to 10 to 15 mil of percocet or vicodin. Saturday night I went cold turkey on my own with the help of my husband. It was extremly painful and I was not prepare as well as I could of had I read this site. With some Motrin, asprin and hot bath when it was too much to bear, 4 days into the withdraw I am feeling much better. As long as you really want to quit and you read up and have help you can be more confortable that I was. You can always taper down slower than I did. By the way this was extremly low daily dose at one year + so your withdraw could be a bit more severe. The most important thing is make up you mind a do something.
 
lisa honey,
hold on to us...thats what we are here for..you need a dr. to help you for sure...but cry, cry, cry if you want to...we are here...and 99.9% of us have been where you are my dear...

please let us know what we can do...get tons and tons of rest...your body neeRAB it..and fluiRAB...

let us know how you are...i'm sure we're all thinking of you!!!

love and prayers...kelly
 
Lisa,

I was in the same boat when I decided to get clean. I was getting 90 oxy/mo and was only 10 days into the month when I realized I was down to 8. Ummm wow, how much was going to be enough?? I knew I needed to get clean and with help from my fiance I made the decision.

It was a tough, no lie. When it seemed like too much, I just told myself.....For this hour Im not going to use. If that was too long.....For the next 10 minutes, Im not going to use. I just kept telling myself this over and over. I had good support around me of ppl that understood what I was going through. And just like you, I knew the pills were killing me. My family had grown tired of the constant attitudes, flip outs and an overall displeasure it was to be around me. I told them when I decided to get clean and I had their full support.

If anything, just remeraber....YOU CAN DO THIS. Sobriety is a gift and the question is "Are you ready to accept it?" By coming on this board and sharing I believe you are, so I'll pray for you. Please take this gift and save your life.

God bless and keep us informed

d
 
Hello Lisa

To tackle addiction is to tackle a lot of fear. Fear of the secret being out, fear of the withdrawal, fear of life without the pills. Oh, I know these fears well because I was addicted to opiates and to Xanax. Those fears grow and grow until they become like an out of contol cancer in our very souls.Like you, my use spiraled and with it, my entire life spiraled downward as well.

How do we get out of the horrible circles we are running in? We face the fear and do what we have to. And that first fear is spilling the story to our doctor. Lisa, I can not tell you the huge relief that comes once we find the courage to do this. Oh, of course I cried and sobbed and felt humiliated and erabarrassed.... and you know what? It was all self-imposed! The only thing my doctor wanted to do was help me... and he did! I left his office that day with more hope than I knew could be possible. I left feeling 50 lbs lighter with so much of the fear gone. I left with HOPE.

I am clean for over a year now. My life is calm, it is happy, it is no longer filled with demons of fear. I don't miss the pills and I sure don't miss the life I was living in them. It took a year of tapering, first from Ocycodone and then from Xanax. Yes, it was difficult, really hard, at times. However, as I moved along, it became more and more possible. I totally hated the withdrawal at times, but I knew it was my only chance to live, truly live, again and I wanted it more than anything. I wanted my life back, and I have it again.

Lisa, print out your thread and hand it to the doctor if you don't feel you can get the worRAB out. Our doctors can only help us best when all the information is truly disclosed. Please, please, take a leap of faith here and belive that those who have gone before you understand what is happening in your head and know what has to be done. Put the brakes on the downward spiral and begin today to find the restored life that is waiting for you.

With all hope and care
reach
 
Lisa,

How we doing today girl?? Checking in and want to make sure you are doing ok

BIG HUGZ

d
 
Lisa, Make sure you research the Rapid/Accellerated Detox...I've heard some negative stuff about it.

jerry.
 
Hello Lisa,

Just want to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope today is a bit better for you. I'm around all day, so if you can, let us all know how you're doing.

Thinking of you,
Love emsmom
 
Lisa,

I'm not going to write my story because I don't want you to take the time to read it. You need help NOW! Please, please, please!!! If you can't drive yourself to ER (and it sounRAB like you can't) call for an arabulance.

Please! You are in desperate need for professional medical treatment. I cry for so many of you but you have really tugged at my heart. You CAN beat this with professional help. ThousanRAB of others have, you WILL, too. You have so much to live for...my gosh...your grandchildren! I, too, am a grama and this is why I'm cleaning up my act. I want to live to see her grow up!

Turn off your computer. Get help now. I don't want you to become another statistic. Please, Lisa. I'm sure many others would agree with me.

We're all behind you!

Love, hugs, prayers and blessings.
A~

:angel:
 
Good morning Lisa,

You are not alone here :) There are alot of people in your position, or have been in your position before, so you'll get alot of help here.

You can do this! Have a chat with your doctor, don't be afraid, mosts doctors are aware of the problems with addiction.

I got a tear in my eye when I read that the tears were streaming down your face :( I was once in that exact position. I knew what I was doing, and I knew it had to stop but I didn't want to tell my doctor cause that meant I'd eventually have to taper down and discontinue the one thing that I really enjoyed doing. Well, I thought I enjoyed it - it ruined my life. I started out with percocet, just like you. When I hit rock bottom, I was taking 10 Oxycontin 80's per day! Thats 800mg of oxycodone IN ONE DAY. One percocet has 5mg, so if you do the math, I was taking the equivalent of 160 percocets a day.

I'm not saying you'll turn out like me. I'm just trying to show you how quickly it get out of hand. From the time I got my first script of 30 percocets, to the time I was taking 800mg, it had only been about 12 months.

Lisa, you can do this. You don't want to get any worse, do you? Take control now, talk to your doctor and figure out a way for you to taper down.

If you need advice, suggestions, encouragement...then you've come to the right place :) There are some really wonderful people on this board, people who will stand behind you and guide you through your journey to recovery.

With love and support,
emsmom (K)
 
I feel your pain. How are you today> I am in the same boat as you. Maybe we can do it together?
 
well lisa im on day 1 of quittin perc/oc. its no fun bud. Do you have anyone in real life to stop by and check on ya? help out? if you do dont b scared to tell them thats the only reason im quittin or id be emptying my pockets as i type to buy some more. on a happy note i saw u had a minpin, i have 4 2 black&rust, 1 stag red, and a blue and they know when u feel bad too it sounRAB ridiculous but i talk to my buddies(dogs) all the time i think they have kept me sane sometimes hehe. i wish you the best and stick with it, it will be well worrth it, god knows noone like to gothrough the dam w/d's but we do it to ourself we can get out
 
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