If you look again, I had called myself a douche. I was thinking that implied that I can't believe I used to think like that before.
Call it enlightenment. A guy pointed out that genres like black metal, death metal, and thrash all had just as deep of roots in other genres of music as metalcore, nu-metal, funk metal. long story short, he basically made me feel real stupid..... I later filled the dark void left in my heart by this grotesque display of hurtnessness with carbon minoxide and pizza, and sort of dropped the whole outlook on true/false metal. Metal is metal, and it either blows your mind away, or just blows, just like the rest of music.