You disappointed me.

BEESEXY

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;835131']There are things so dear to us, we value them above all things. We love them... and we trust them. They have done us well in so many ways, and we embrace them and take pride in them. We are willing to trust them with the things we love most.

But then they hurt the ones we love.

I'm talking about the Army. Yeah, I'm letting lose. I'm disappointed in the Army.

First of all, I see what I see and nothing more. Maybe there's more to it. But, this is my letter to the Army.

Army, you and I have a fairly new relationship with one another. It's been about two years. You've gotten used to me, and I've gotten used to you. You are different from the Marine Corps I still hold dear to my heart. You have given me so many things, and taken me in.

But, the Marine Corps taught me things I have yet to see in you.

As a Marine, we worked together. If one failed, we all failed. We pulled together and became brothers forever. As a soldier, I have seen you welcome the idea of exploiting the failures and shortcomings of others so one could advance.

As a Marine, we were all green. As a soldier, I have seen you take and show an open disregard for racial equality in favor of placating a minority for fear of a racism backlash.

As a Marine, I said a lot of goodbyes. As a soldier, I have said a lot of "they haven't told me yet".

As a Marine, I was taught to be a leader with my own individual style. As a soldier, you taught me how to do counseling papers and make people do exercises.

As a Marine, I was motivated as soon as I was called "Marine" or addressed by my rank. As a soldier, you have only forced me to show false motivation and don't even call me by the rank I have worked for 6 years to acheive, and you call me "soldier" to reprimand me.

As a Marine, I took pride in my uniform and wore it with pride. As a soldier, you have overcomplicated the simplest of military apparel to the point of frustration. You constantly add to and take away and expect me to know.

As a Marine, I was part of a family and we took care of one another- even if that meant not abiding by the books. As a soldier, I have seen my superiors go to great lengths to use those books against others to the exact letter.

As a Marine, I knew what I was and was not supposed to do. As a soldier, you insist I "Google" Army regulations and cite numbers instead of having the balls to tell me that it's a go or a no-go.

As a Marine, I was taught to be a warrior, a gentleman, and a professional. As a soldier, you have fools citing textbook warfare tactics, you teach nothing close to chivalry, and professionalism in an aspect that appeals to those above you- not below you where the ones you care about should be.

As a Marine, I was promoted because I earned it. Those that worked with me and knew me spoke on whether or not I should be promoted, despite what my score was. As a soldier, I have seen you promote leaders that can run real good and shoot.

As a Marine, I was taught to take care of my family first. As a soldier, I have been taught that my family has standard procedures on base free of charge for their use, and I could deal with them on my time.

As a Marine, I was taught I was a god among mortals and that all living things dreamt of being as powerful as I. I know it was egotistical, but it was all in good fun. As a soldier, I have seen you shit on me in favor of your civilian contractors- because you can pay them ridiculous amounts of money and it be far cheaper than enlisting a man and teaching him the same job.

Then, before all of this came to light...

I trusted you with that I loved the most. And you hurt her. You crushed her spirit, and you denied her the care she needed. You chose to blame me, her family, or her lack of cameraderie among whores and heathens. You did this.

She is done with you, and choses to respect you for what you are. But, she has no desire to be one of yours again. I cannot blame her.

I have made an oath to you. I will keep my oath. I may even be acting out against you prematurely, and I really hope I am.

I will bear my cross as I have sworn to, and strive to be as best I can be for you- because that is the way I am as a man.

And being a man comes before being a soldier.
 
Wow... :thumbsup:


You write really well, and that was a beatiful post to read, all opinions on politics aside. Stand up for what you believe for, and do what's right. You may be an asshole sometimes, but you're never a coward.
 
So I might be stupid for asking this, but are you saying that you're leaving the army, or that you're serving out your duty? I don't know what happened to Danni but I hope everything goes well, after the shit you do for them they have no right to treat you, or your family like crap.
 
i had always wanted to join the marines since highschool. sounds exactly how i pictured it :) ..as does the army.. very powerful, hostile. what happened to this girl?
 
Hostile, as an e-friend of Danni's... I've been keeping a close eye attuned to all things that have happened as you type them into the realm of IRC. You already know most of my thoughts on this and you know that I've been keeping Danni in my prayers. One thing that kind of took me by surprise however is, that before this thread I've never known that you were currently in the Army yourself.

What in the world ever posessed you to leave behind the Marines in favor of the Army?
 
That was very eloquently written. I don't know what your current situation is, but I hope that everything turns out the way you want it to. My oldest son served in the Navy and when he wanted to marry was given a very hard time about his "Navy Family" and how his first duty was to them.

Unfortunately, the constant badgering from his superiors and fellow comrades eventually tore him and his wife apart. It's a long story I won't go into, but it has altered his life forever and robbed him of his first born child and a future with her mother. You seem to be a very noble man, and I admire your devotion to your wife.

As a MAN she is your first priority and you acknowledge that. The world would be a better place if more men acted this way.
 
I think I missed something here? What happened to Danni in reference to the army?

I haven't gotten to spend much time even lurking as I usually do in IRC so I miss lots of stuff :(
 
Hostile, I know what you're feeling. You're a man for sticking to what you said you'd do even though you know what's up!:thumbsup:
 
;835496']Thanks guys. It hurt me to write this.

I will serve my time. I will serve it, and I may even retire.

But, I will serve wearing an army uniform, following army regulations, and doing the army thing- but I'll still be a Man, a Husband, and a Marine when it boils down to it.
 
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