Withdrawl Day 1

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Well its been a few days and i think im now in the worst of the withdrawls. I spoke to my doctor and I am going to see a special doc to be started on Soboxone on Monday, so there is light at the end of the tunnel as awful as i feel right now. I joined my wife's family for T-Day yesterday and for the first time in a year she said it felt like it was really ME that she was spending time with. I am going to make it and I just want this pain to be over. Im doing my best to hang in there, but it is so hard. I appreciate all the support from all of you. I couldnt do this alone and my wife and sister have really stepped up to help me. I have the best wife in the world and i got her flowers yesterday to make sure she knew how i still feel about her. So 3 days till I can get this new medication that will help me. I feel so close, but so far away....This is hard but I am trying to be positive and i know im going to make it. I need to go lie back down, as i feel like im dying....good old drugs huh??? Im done with them and Im taking back what's mine......Im sure I'll post alot in the next few days as I really need to do this. Thank you all again for your support to get me through this.....YOU ALL ROCK!!!!!
 
You can do it, and you do have support. Please read my post about what I went through. I know its hard, but you/ we can do this. I pray that you continue to do well, its a tough fight, but a fight you CAN WIn no less. I will be thinking of you, as you go through yours and as still go through mine. Day 2, youre almost there, 5-7 of the w/d's, sounRAB like a long time but it isnt. Eat healthy meals. drink juice, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Pat yourself on the back for the 2 days youve already gone though, that in itself is accomplishment.
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Ive finally decided to get off of my painkillers after a 9 month stint. I went to an ER today and they put in a 3 days Klonodine patch. I am hoping this will help with some of the w/d smyptoms...I told my wife the truth and she is trying hard to act supportive. I hope with the patch the w/d wont get worse because I know how much it hurts, but this time. I need all the help i can get and i hope i never forget how awful i feel right now, This time my recovery is for nobody but me and im going to try my best. I just feel so alone in all off this, and support with this I would be greatful for. How long can this last? I will not fail this time, as if i don't it may be the end of me. I want controll of my life back so I guess this is the first step. Are there anyother things i can do to help? I HAVE TO MAKE IT THIS TIME or my marrige and life as i know it is over. I CAN DO THIS, its just is a matter of time i guess. Wish me luck on this narcotic withdrawl.........so this is day 2, I hope i have the strength for all of this and i could use some supportl I am going to make it this time. I just with with the nasty leg cramps would go away!!!! Please help me stay strong and get my life and family back....Thanks for listening to my rarabling, but i think it helps a bit.................Thanks in advance to all who this may concern. I tried a detox facilities all over the area and nobody would take me.....so im in for quite the mental and physical trial. I CAN DO THIS.......and Thanks again to all of you for putting me on the right tract.......Pray for me and my family, I really need it at this time of trial........ CTGUY2054
 
Yuck, this was the worst day yet, with the muscle pain. I talked to my doctor though and she gave me 1mg Colonodine pills PRN 2-4h and that has helped quite a bit. Just another day and a half till my appt. trying really hard not to relapse. The good news is i hate the drugs with a passion. The bad news is my body is begging for it. Hanging in there though.......This too will pass....
 
It sounRAB like you are in that bad depresive zone of the withrawl. there is not much I can say to make you feel better, other than to keep doing this and stay strong throughout. I know it doesnt make it betterwhen i say this but if you stick it out you will feel better after a few days, its these few days that are the hardest both physically and mentally. For the leg cramps I would suggest taking hot baths a few times a day. get as much excersise as you can, even though I know you feel shitty, even if the excersise is just walking down the end of the raod and a few pushups after the walk, then jump in the hot bath and just relax in their for awhile

I would also say that these first few days the worst thing you can do is lay around all day feeling shitty. Depending on how bad your symptoms are, and i know it can be very uncomfortable and you can be very lethargic but I suggest trying to keep busy, wether that is going to the movies or out to lunch or any activy really. Basically just stay strong and when you are really down in the dumps or you are really feeling helpless just think that it is on e day at a time, you just have to get through this day to get to the next and every step along the way is an improtant one.
 
I've been in your shoes before and it's no fun, but if you stay positive you can do it. Like the previous poster said, exercise and hot baths work wonders. It may help, it did me, to write out my intentions for the day. Each morning I would wake up and write in a journal (you can use a notepad if that's all that you have). I would write out what I would accomplish that day--I would do 30 minutes of walking, play with the kiRAB, etc.....

Anything you can do to keep your mind off the pills will help you. I had the kiRAB to take care of so we played many games, read a lot of books and played outside. If you are able to, take some nyquil and sleep. Sleep during the first day or so will help your body. I also took HylanRAB brand leg cramp pills for the leg jitters that I had.

I'll send positive thoughts your way. Take things hour by hour, but try to focus on the positive. You may even want to write out your goals. For example, you say that your marriage is depending on this; write out a plan that will help you get to the goal of saving your marriage. Also, post here and post as often as you need to. You're not in this alone and we are all pulling for you.

Stay busy and I hope that all is going well for you.
 
So I started Suboxone 8mg BID today...and I feel like there is hope yet. I know its still an opiate, so i dont consider myself clean as of yet, but Im not worrying about how bad i feel or where i will get my next fix. It's like a weight has been lifting and Im getting one more try to put my life back together. Thank you all for your support thusfar, I know the road will be long and dangerous, but I feel like I really have a chance now and Im not hurting....I think I can do this for once in my life and Im really psyched about all of this. Its only the first step....but its a step forward. My thoughts and prayers go out to the rest of you that are on the road to recovery. I feel like it CAN be done, so dont give up. I haven't given up and my wife has not given up on me. I owe it to my stepson to be the father, husband, and man that I know I can be. Ill be on here alot im sure as I need to hear everyone else's stories. Thank you all again for getting me this far. I feel like I owe my life to each and every one of you. ONE DAY AT A TIME!
 
I'm in the same boat. Except, my stint was only for a few months. I started to notice getting flu like symptoms when I wouldn't take the 15mg roxicodone on a regular basis. So, I started to attempt to 'taper down.' Well, I didn't have enough pills to do this correctly and was doing it too fast. I decided to just stop completely. I went through 3 days of complete hell. I was depressed, twitching, hot and cold flashes, anxiety, flu like symptoms etc. I missed Thanksgiving with the family. I feel awful about that.

Now I'm on day 4 and feeling MUCH better. Although, I am having 'brain zaps.' Like withdrawaling from an anti-depressant. I believe it's my gaba receptors being all messed up.

Just as a word of encouragement, it DOES get better. I know a lot of people suggest getting out and walking etc; however, I honestly couldnt even get out of bed to type on a computer. I felt like gravity was pulling me down. It was amazing that I was actually able to shower and shave by myself (it was a struggle!). I fell in a deep depression and just wanted to sleep all day. Luckily, I had clonazepam (that I take for anxiety) to level off a little bit of the anxiety, but to be honest, it didn't help much. I don't think there is any magic solution except to wait it out and then make sure you don't dig yourself a hole again.

Best of luck to all of you!
 
Hello CTguy

Wishing you all the comfort possible as you stand strong in fighting back at the beast of addiction. As I myself fought my own batle, I tried to stay in the moment and not look at the whole war, but just individual battles. I just used the resources I learned about to fight each symptom as it came... deep breathing for anxiety, singing out loud and physical movement for depression, prayer for the times I felt overwhelmed, and, of course, posting here for support between doctor visits. Like a baby learning to walk, we go through the trips and falls, but we keep getting up and moving on until, finally we walk strong and steady. Baby step by baby step, I assure you it will happen and you will walk strong and steady in a drug free life.

Acknowledge each symptom and work it. Come here for ideas to help corabat whatever symptom is plaguing you at any given time. As you wrote, just posting in itself is often enough to help ride out a symptom. As for the Klonodine, yes, I believe it will help. Perhaps consider seeing a doctor for more than a 3 day supply.

I wish you well. I will be waiting to greet you in sobriety.
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Hey CTguy,

I have been thinking about you over the weekend!!!!! I had no access to a computer until today and am SO HAPPY you are doing so well. YOU WILL get thru this and I think you NOW know that.... This road to recovery is no easy one but nothing worth doing is usually... I am so happy to hear you stayed strong... I prayed and thought a lot for you and others on here and was so anxious to get on here this morning to see how everyone was doing... Work has been a zoo so I have not been able to post very much today.. Maybe more tomorrow..

I just HAD to congratulate you though!!!!!!!! Keep it up... With everyday a piece of your self worth and pride comes back. Cherish that family of yours as it sounRAB like you are doing. The sound like angels! :angel:

Hang in there buddy!
~Secrets
 
I go again to see my Soboxone doc tomorrow. It has been working great for me as I now don't have to worry about finding pills and I have energy to get things done efficiently like I haven't in quite some time. It also helps that I have spent every possible moment with my wife and stepson at her mother's house and my wife is being super supportive as has most of my family. I feel like I have been nudged in the right direction and I can't stop to look back because I fear if I do, I may not move forward again. I guess fear of the pain medications is a healthy thing right now. I don't feel so gross as I did when I was lying to everyone under the sun to get my "fix". I am getting some wicked side-effect headaches from the Suboxone, but other then that it has been a maricle for me so far, but I also know I can't stay on it forever. But one day at a time........I have to say, I feel again.......I missed just feeling...Im thrilled to be back. Back in my life and seemingly back in my world. Thanks to all for your continued support. Its been around a week, but I feel like I can put that life behind me so I can be the father, brother, husband, and so I know I can be. I pledge my continued support and prayers to the who have found the way, and moreso to those who approach the crossroaRAB of their lives....This can be done....I don't feel like a strong person, so if I can make it......I strongly believe anything is possible now!
 
CTguy,

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Where do I even start? First of all... I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THRU and if I can do it.. YOU CAN!!!! I have faith in you and it sounRAB like you have faith in yourself. I will say that for me it was one of the hardest things I have ever had to go thru. Mentally and physically. The leg jitters for me were the WORST! HOT BATHS!! HOT BATHS!!! HOT BATHS!!! I took at least 3 a day.. as hot as I could stand it. Then I would try to wear my legs out.

What got me thru it was this site... These people and their support. I felt so alone. Until I found this! I really wish I was going to be able to be on here over the weekend to continue my support for you but I have no computer access at home. Please know you will be on my mind and in my prayers the entire time. I will pray for your strength!!!!

Please hang in there.. YOU ARE WORTH THIS. SAFE YOURSELF and you marriage.. It's worth it..... Life is so much better on this side of the addiction.. JOIN US! Stay strong and you will be feeling this good soon.. Few days of hell are worth a life of happiness and health!

Hang in there!
~Secrets
 
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