will the fighting ever stop?

[lonelygirl81]

we are not together.. he broke up with me 6 months ago.. he moved out twice but came back..but we still live together.. we have 3 great kids.. lately hes been hanging out.. coming home at 2-3 am... i ask where he was he tells me to mind my business.. thats its not my concern anymore.. and i need to stop acting like we a couple still and move on.. face reality.... we are always fighting.. he says he goes out to get away from me.. that all my nagging and complaining and asking questions is pushing him away more.. that hes at the point that hes about to walk out and never see me again and hes ok with that.. as long as hes happy than oh well.. he said he doesnt see me as his best friend anymore... we were together for 14 yrs... he broke up with me 6 months before we made 15 yrs... when he gets mad and starts putting me down i get angry because im trying to hold my anger in and just talk to him, but he keeps talking trash to me.. telling me he doesnt need me and that i make him sick.. so i get mad and tell him me and the kids dont need him.. that he needs to get the hell out.. i will be happy never seeing him again.. that im starting to hate him... and all he does is laugh at me and say good.. im happy you feel like that.. but deep down inside i dont mean any of that.. im just saying it because hes hurting me and laughing in my face while im crying... i say all that out of anger... i love that man with all my heart.. i miss him so much.. he used to be so happy and loving.. now he cant stand me.. he says he is still in love with me, but i dont believe it.. i think he just got used to me.. i love spending time with him but he rather be out in the streets with his brother and cousin and hoes.. we dont talk like we used to.. we are always fighting now.. for everything... im tired of this life.. i want him in my life as a husband or at least a best friend.. but he wants nothing to do with me.. i told him hes using me.. in a way i really feel like that, but i said it to hurt him because he was hurting me.. and i know this is a very immature thing to do.. but i cant take this anymore..i told him he needs to leave and he said he will leave in feb when his apt is ready... .

i dont know whats going on with us anymore... hes always mad at me.. he doesnt know how to relax anymore... he used to tell everyone at work about me.. but now he tells his brother everything.. and its so annoying.. maybe we were not meant to be in each others lives... it didnt work out for us as a married couple , now its not going to work as friends...