Question on suicide.
Hi everyone, I am missing the meaning in my life, or let's say the meaning that I have within my perceptive parameters are not worth me staying alive. Which makes me either very stupid, or very depressed, neither of which I believe I am.
Nothing is really wrong with me or my life. In fact I am pretty liked by everyone at work and clients I have relatively normal dysfunctional family, (myself I have no children). I don't want to have children, I prefer to spend time on my own, I don't enjoy things in life, I do try to go out and meet people and play the cheerful persona. I do all the things that normal healthy person should do. But I simply do not enjoy any of it. I am more fascinated with philosophy of life and death, universe and other side (that keeps calling me). I have no addictions, no disasters in my life, no money worries, apart from the fact that I have this undying wish to die.
I have my chosen very deadly method ready. I know that my thoughts and mood with take me to this place where I finally act on my thought and kill myself.
My question is; I in my heart and in my head believe that suicide it's absolutely ok and normal thing to do. Yes I will cause some heartache to people but they will get over it and carry on. Why do people get so upset with the notion of ending one's life? Why is it such a bad thing?
Why am I missing this love for living this love that others have? Why to me it feels absolutely ok soothing calming and I look forward to that mental push that is coming?
What is going on with me?
P.S if I could exchange my youth and donate returns for bettering the environment, I would.
Hi everyone, I am missing the meaning in my life, or let's say the meaning that I have within my perceptive parameters are not worth me staying alive. Which makes me either very stupid, or very depressed, neither of which I believe I am.
Nothing is really wrong with me or my life. In fact I am pretty liked by everyone at work and clients I have relatively normal dysfunctional family, (myself I have no children). I don't want to have children, I prefer to spend time on my own, I don't enjoy things in life, I do try to go out and meet people and play the cheerful persona. I do all the things that normal healthy person should do. But I simply do not enjoy any of it. I am more fascinated with philosophy of life and death, universe and other side (that keeps calling me). I have no addictions, no disasters in my life, no money worries, apart from the fact that I have this undying wish to die.
I have my chosen very deadly method ready. I know that my thoughts and mood with take me to this place where I finally act on my thought and kill myself.
My question is; I in my heart and in my head believe that suicide it's absolutely ok and normal thing to do. Yes I will cause some heartache to people but they will get over it and carry on. Why do people get so upset with the notion of ending one's life? Why is it such a bad thing?
Why am I missing this love for living this love that others have? Why to me it feels absolutely ok soothing calming and I look forward to that mental push that is coming?
What is going on with me?
P.S if I could exchange my youth and donate returns for bettering the environment, I would.