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123eri123eri
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so i am 13 years old very depressed and love alone time i have tons of siblings but in my head i will make up fantasies of a completely different life i am trans gender i feel like i am someone else so when i think about these things i like to be active i will ride my bike around the block just in a different world about 10 times a day or i will lay in bed and talk to myself or i will act like someone is there when they are not but i dont know how to tell anyone im afraid that i am loosing my mind but im not hallucinating i am just imagining things but i know whats real and whats not but i just always want to be alone to be able to get in deep thought and concentrate it makes me very happy and i get a big rush from it thats why i like to be active why im doing it when i ride my bike and do this it gets dangerous because i will get so deep in thought ive almost gotten hit by a car twice now and i will wake up very early like at 5:00 and just go and ride but the high goes away after a while and then i will go late at night but then i will be so paranoid thinking someones chasing after me or i will be afraid that a car will swerve into me or something i just started doing these weird things about 2 years ago and i cant explain it