This happened a long time ago but it still bothers me. I can't get over that I was bullied and I keep feeling angry.
Info about me:
I was your classic quiet girl. I was polite. If someone needed notes or forgot their book I would share. If they wanted to borrow a pencil or a pen I would share. If they needed a bit of money I would share. I was nice. I was polite. I never started fights and I never did anything bad. I followed the rules and behaved. I was clean. I dressed neatly. I don't look weird in any way. I wasn't fat or too skinny. I was normal. I didn't stand out in anyway. Unless being nice and quiet is standing out.
Yet people still bothered me. They still picked on me.
Even guys. That is the weird thing. I am not talking about just kids either. This happened in middle school as well. By this time you would think they would know better but it still happened. You would think I would only have to deal w/ mean girls but no. Guys too. And groups of them. I'm talking like 5 guys or more.
Here's a scenario:
I was accidentally bumped into a guy with a broken arm. I was just reaching for a pencil I dropped and my elbow hit his. The desks were very close together. I apologized to him. Multiple times. And he heard it and said it's ok. But he was popular and some of the guys he hangs out with saw. So they all started cheering for him to beat me up. He told them all multiple times it was ok. The teacher angrily snapped at me to apologize even then I already did multiple times. And she said nothing to the guys cheering for a guy twice my size to beat me up.
Why did this happen to me? Why was I treated this way even though I was nice? When I tried to make myself look nice why did girls criticize me? Why did guys call me slut even though I was a virgin, never been kissed, never had a boyfriend, and never talked to guys other than my brother or his friends? Why did a guy call me a lesbian just because he noticed I never talk to guys?
Why was everyone always against me? Are some people tragic people so they suffer forever endlessly even though they are nice and try to be nice to others?
Should I be a bitch? I have been home for a few years and drowning in depression. I am going to enter society again. Should I be a bitch this time?
Info about me:
I was your classic quiet girl. I was polite. If someone needed notes or forgot their book I would share. If they wanted to borrow a pencil or a pen I would share. If they needed a bit of money I would share. I was nice. I was polite. I never started fights and I never did anything bad. I followed the rules and behaved. I was clean. I dressed neatly. I don't look weird in any way. I wasn't fat or too skinny. I was normal. I didn't stand out in anyway. Unless being nice and quiet is standing out.
Yet people still bothered me. They still picked on me.
Even guys. That is the weird thing. I am not talking about just kids either. This happened in middle school as well. By this time you would think they would know better but it still happened. You would think I would only have to deal w/ mean girls but no. Guys too. And groups of them. I'm talking like 5 guys or more.
Here's a scenario:
I was accidentally bumped into a guy with a broken arm. I was just reaching for a pencil I dropped and my elbow hit his. The desks were very close together. I apologized to him. Multiple times. And he heard it and said it's ok. But he was popular and some of the guys he hangs out with saw. So they all started cheering for him to beat me up. He told them all multiple times it was ok. The teacher angrily snapped at me to apologize even then I already did multiple times. And she said nothing to the guys cheering for a guy twice my size to beat me up.
Why did this happen to me? Why was I treated this way even though I was nice? When I tried to make myself look nice why did girls criticize me? Why did guys call me slut even though I was a virgin, never been kissed, never had a boyfriend, and never talked to guys other than my brother or his friends? Why did a guy call me a lesbian just because he noticed I never talk to guys?
Why was everyone always against me? Are some people tragic people so they suffer forever endlessly even though they are nice and try to be nice to others?
Should I be a bitch? I have been home for a few years and drowning in depression. I am going to enter society again. Should I be a bitch this time?