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i get really obsessed with boys, so much so that i end up basing my whole life around one and thinking about them all the time. so yeah anyway it’s all fine and okay when a boy is totally ignorant of this and has no idea that i am 100% crushing to the extremes but if anything happens like i discover they like me or something i'll have a major breakdown.
i’ll think of 101 situations where it’d be totally weird and horrible. i’ll think of all the things they could be thinking about me while i’m sitting next to them (sexy and horrible aggressive things). i’ll think of 101 things that is very wrong with them and convince myself that they definatley don’t like me because i don’t know, they hate my music, they hate my hair, i don’t um… sex them uh good enough or something i don’t know. this has happened before ok i’m not just saying this like i’ve never had a boyfriend before.
i am convinced that i will forever be alone. i’m scared of being submissive and passive and someone being angry at me. i’m scared that i won’t know what to talk about with someone (it’s been pretty forced and uncomfortable before and then just lead to making out) i’m scared of everything to do with sex ever completely i’m too nervous for anything and i mean anything he’d do to me would just be UNCOMFORTABLE and UNENJOYABLE. i’m scared that he’d be all clued up and i’d just have to go along with it because I’M SCARED OF BOYS AND I CAN’T SAY NO BECAUSE I’M AN IDIOT.
do you have any advice about what i can do to become comfortable in relationships?
i’ll think of 101 situations where it’d be totally weird and horrible. i’ll think of all the things they could be thinking about me while i’m sitting next to them (sexy and horrible aggressive things). i’ll think of 101 things that is very wrong with them and convince myself that they definatley don’t like me because i don’t know, they hate my music, they hate my hair, i don’t um… sex them uh good enough or something i don’t know. this has happened before ok i’m not just saying this like i’ve never had a boyfriend before.
i am convinced that i will forever be alone. i’m scared of being submissive and passive and someone being angry at me. i’m scared that i won’t know what to talk about with someone (it’s been pretty forced and uncomfortable before and then just lead to making out) i’m scared of everything to do with sex ever completely i’m too nervous for anything and i mean anything he’d do to me would just be UNCOMFORTABLE and UNENJOYABLE. i’m scared that he’d be all clued up and i’d just have to go along with it because I’M SCARED OF BOYS AND I CAN’T SAY NO BECAUSE I’M AN IDIOT.
do you have any advice about what i can do to become comfortable in relationships?