Who to go to to talk?

[Michaela]

I recently asked a question and someone kindly pointed out that it's possible i might be clinically depressed, and i looked at the signs of depression, and I have them. All of them. I am always sad because there is just too much wrong in my life, and I have no one to talk to. My parents have enough stress and they wouldn't believe me, my brother hates me, my sister is never home, and my younger sister is too young to understand. I have cousins and uncles and aunts and grandparents, but I'm just not close enough. My mom has a therapist that I have gone to when my parents divorced, but every time I have something to say, my throat closes and it's hard to breathe and I forget what i'm saying. then i cry and no one understands me anymore. i lost my best friends who were like sisters and a brother, and then none of my friends are mature enough or trust worthy or close enough to talk to. what should i do? i'll go to a therapist to see what's going on i guess, but i don't know her and she doesn't know me or my story and she won't ever understand me. plus some of my situations are embarrassing. please help