I just signed up here about 15 minutes ago, and after reading the "sticky posts," I'm a little unsure about what's allowed when it comes to talking about twelve step programs. Hmm.
Anyway. I went to a treatment center at the end of last year, where of course, twelve step meetings were a daily event for three months. I went to AA for a month of my outpatient requirements, and then switched to NA... I went to about four meetings a week from January to April. I had a great sponsor and a big support network, but I eventually got really tired of the program and a lot of the people in it. My whole interest in sobriety was dwindling because I just didn't hear the "message" that people tell you to listen for. NA seemed to be just a social event for me. I'm definitely not trying to belittle the positivity that many people get from NA... it just wasn't right for me.
April of this year, I was totally discouraged about my recovery. I ended up using my drug of choice a few days before breaking things off with my sponsor. That being said, April 14 is my new sobriety date... I haven't used in a little over seven months.
I think one of my big problems with NA was following strict spiritual direction. I'm a spiritual person, but I found twelve step programs to stress the "God concept" a little too much for my liking. Within my support group, I felt like people were forcing it on me. I've stayed sober by finding new and positive activities I enjoy. I keep in touch with spirituality, but by my own methoRAB and rules. I see a therapist and keep a daily journal/sketcrabroadook to balance out stress. I make sure to keep family and frienRAB a high priority.
For me, it was a lot about finding alternative things to do, because using drugs consumed everything in my life for so long. That's all I did... I had no frienRAB, no hobbies, I wasn't working or going to school. Now, waking up is like, "Today, instead of doing drugs, I'm going to..." what have you.
That's how I've stayed clean. Hope my story will help a little.
