Brian Rogers
New member
Where do I start, I have congstive heart failure, I was told bye my liver speacilists that I only have 10 two 9 years two live maybe sooner no one wants to bealve that i guess, My back is loseing muscle maybe pagets diase I am dieing alone. I love this women she is my bestfriend the only one I have every let get close but she dose not realize how much she means two me I dont not want to go threw life with this pain anymore knowing I can never be with her and watch her be with someone else. I do not want to live anymore I tired sleeping pills that were doctor presicrebed I over dosed on postaium and fluorsomide I went to a trial expertment for anti depresant that told me I was two suciadal they would not be able to help me. I got lexapro 5mg nade me angry not happy. I tried talking two friends and family they look down on you because they do not understand why you could feel so useless I tried hanging my self in the back yard but started two cry because i was faceing my mother's and sister bedroom and they last thought that came to mind was that the last thing they would think about when they looked out the window's was me hanging there in a tree.. The haredest part about going to talk two someone is asking for help and then when you do and they turn you down what do you do. just give up and let it win. Well I am dieing anyways I tried the exhaust thing two it did not work I just want to go quick and with out makeing noise I am in a basement bye my self all the time so no one would ever realize that anything happend to me. No one cares anyways. Thanks for listen who ever you are.