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Sammy K

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I feel crazy!

I haven't been able to follow through or complete tasks. It's now the fifth week of this semester and I haven't bought all my books yet, or done any homework. I couldn't even motivate myself to see what my homework was last night! I had a test today that I skipped out on (fortunately I can make it up) because I haven't even cracked the book that it's based on.

I've been exhausted. I've been distracted. I think I am addicted to cigarettes (again). I have been unable to get up in the morning.

Last night I was driving home, the same extremely easy route I've taken for the past almost year, and I missed my exit and just kept going for about 20 minutes. Fortunately I quickly realized where I was once I came back to reality, though.

I just feel like my mind is falling apart. WTF is going on?

Edit: There has been tragedy (death and illness) in my life lately. Could this be part of it?
 
It definately sounds like you're main focus is not your school work. Deaths in the family, if not properly dealt with, can manifest themselves in unhealthy ways. Social stresses, work or financial stress can also do strange things to you.

You may also want to look into the quality of your sleep... sleep is a major requirement for "normal" function. I wouldn't blame cigarettes, but your smoking habit could indicate a higher stress level in your life.

Is there a coulseling program at your school? Is there somebody qualified to delve into your head and help you figure things out? Look into it! Mental health is important, and not something only worth checking into if you're "crazy".
 
The "events" you speak of are probably the culprit. Ever since I left Dustin I have been completely unable to concentrate on anything at school. I didn't do an important essay because I couldn't concentrate on it. I couldn't even properly analyze it enough to do the essay. I feel completely unmotivated to do anything but sit at home and rot in my apartment, not because I miss him, but because I have to do everything myself and it's stressful.
 
Hay! You just keep in mind that relaxing, and winding down, can really help you out. Stress management, dude! Take a little bit of time out of your day and make sure you slow down and re-organize. It's important. Psychology teachers everywhere say so. ;)

But I'm feeling you, man. It's like nothing is getting done, you know? Shit.
 
When I was thinking about your situation today because it parallels my own situation so closely, I was thinking maybe putting school on the back burner might be beneficial at this time.

My subsequent thought about that was the difficulty of going back to school in the future. It sounds easy enough to say, "I'll go back later when my life is more sorted out", but then there's the part of life that never seems to sort itself out.

I now EXACTLY how you feel and I know you will do what's best for you. :thumbsup:
 
I don't have any delusions about when life is more sorted out. I just think maybe at one point I will actually want to go to school, and will be able to actually appreciate and get something out of it.

I am going to talk to my mom about it tomorrow. It sucks because she's my counselor at school. :lol:
 
I hear you. If I gave a shit about anything in life and decided to go to school for it, I would definitely get more out of it now than I would have had I gone when I was younger.

edit: For the record: I wasn't, for a second, inferring that you are delusional.
 
So, life has thrown you a couple of curve balls, and you decide you are going to quit functioning for awhile. Actually, not for a little while, but for 3-4 months or so?

Everyone has bad shit happen to them at some point in their lives, and everyone needs a little break now and again, but to just give up and quit is not the best way to handle it, imo. You wont have that option later on in life when Mom and Dad arent around to pick up the pieces.

Your attitude reeks of depression, which if left unattended, can spiral out of control. If you are close with your Mom, then I think you are on the right track about talking with her (or someone else you may trust).

You're what, 18 years old? Time to start acting like an adult, as technically, you are one. Seek the help that you need, but dont quit. Believe me, somewhere down the road, something will happen to you, or a loved one, that will make this current situation you are in look like chicken feed.

Learning how to deal with whatever is bugging you now, properly, will pay dividends in the future.
 
Well, you'll do what's best for you. It is hard if you are feeling so distracted and maybe a bit down from the deaths you speak of. It may not be the foremost thing on your mind, but the grieving period does effect people in other ways than just physically or even obvious ways. Maybe it is the right thing to do to take some time off. Just promise yourself you'll go back as soon as you are feeling more together.

At the same time, ask to take a sick leave so then you have a limited time to work through this, but you do not have to push yourself too far too fast to get your head on straight. If the school allows for a sick leave, I'd suggest you consider that instead of dropping out entirely.
 
Stop functioning? Sorry, I have a high-paying job that can turn into a well-paying career. And with my time off school, I am going to get another job.

I had already planned to drop out of school after this semester, I am just doing it earlier. I am not challenged, interested, or motivated at school. It's just like high school. I am not learning anything. And I am not quitting for "3-4 months". I am quitting for as long as I damn well please.

Mom and Dad are not "picking up the pieces". This is a decision I am making by myself, for myself. This has nothing to do with my parents.



You have absolutely no idea who you're talking to. I am an experienced captain of my own ship. I have been through shit that would make you wish you were never born. Do not ever underestimate me like this again. I've been the man of my motherfucking house since I was 2. Hop off the jockstrap, kid. Shit happens and I'm calm in a shit storm.



I KNOW full-well what depression is. At the age of 13 I was so severely depressed I tried to kill myself. Okay? I'm not depressed. I hate school and it burdens me, but I love my job and I know I am making a positive impact on my community. That makes me eternally happy.



As I had already planned to drop out entirely, I am doing so. I will go back when I actually have a desire to.
 
thekid65 doesn't need anyone to stick up for him so I'm not here to defend his post, I just think that perhaps it's being read with the wrong 'tone'.

I don't think I've seen a more heat-felt post from thekid65 before and I truly believe he was trying to give Icarus the most sound advice he could.

Maybe I'm wrong (it happens) maybe I am the one who read it with a more caring 'tone' than was intended. Who knows. Well, I guess thekid65 does and I'm sure he'll be along sooner or later to straighten us out.
 
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