I've just gone through a rough year. I'm very talented and good enough to do stuff, but I haven't been accepted into any colleges, programs, competitions at which I am qualified to be in. Should I really just say fuck everyone else? I'm almost too self aware, and I can never calm down my thought. I am constantly in deep thought. Like I'm trying to think "whatever bad happens only makes you stronger" (cliche' I know) But I've just been losing everything for the past year. Do things get better and easier after losing so much? Do people who are too deep and see through all the bullshit eventually become successful? Or do those people just give up and not accomplish anything? I feel like there are more people that just give up and have so much talent and potential. What should I do? I don't really have any good friends right now. I don't know who to talk to about this, everyone has their own shit going on, if you understand what I'm saying. The best way to put it is that I am going through an existential break down. Please someone who is deep and understands give me some feedback. Should I get used to failing all the time? I know who I am, I'm not suicidal or any of that. Should I just say Fuck it, or do my own thing and hope I am recognized eventually?