I need someone to help me, because I'm FREAKING OUT HERE!!! I've been married to my husband for 9 years, and been together for 14. As I'm writing this so many things are popping in my head LIKE I SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE SIGNS, but didn't because I love him...
For me, it started with him simply having women's clothes. Now, he hardly has men's clothing!!! The funny thing is dumb me, I thought he was actually getting the clothing for me LOL! NOT! After my pregnancies (we have 3 beautiful children) I do not wear the same sizes as he does... Our whole walk-in closet is full of his women's clothes. I tried talking to him, and all he says is that he doesn't know why he does it. The thing is that I guess I didn't worry about it too much, because it was done in our home, but now my oldest son is noticing AND THAT ISN'T ACCEPTABLE TO ME. I've told him many times that it was a turn off, but I guess he doesn't care. I kind of told him to sell his size ten women's shoes on ebay (oh! He had originally told me that he was buying them to resell them at a higher price on ebay no, no it wasn't for him. So YES, you are absolutely right I'm the dumbest person in the world. I freakin' HATE myself right now.), so he took pictures obviously with the "intent" of posting & selling them on ebay, well he also (he was already dressed in the girly clothes, It BOTHERS ME SO MUCH THAT HE DOES THAT IN FRONT OF OUR KIDS) took pictures of himself in makeup, earrings, and all... When I saw the pictures tonight after my kids were put to bed I nearly vomitted. I feel sick.
I can hardly sleep, I don't know what to do, what's best for my children??? It's not like I don't love him, just not that part of him. Should I divorce him? I'm going nuts here... Why me? I've NEVER had it easy, and AGAIN I CAN'T GET A FREAKIN' BREAK! I wouldn't deprive him of his children, but NO, I don't think I can accept this not with three kids 7, 5 & 1 year old.
Seriously, if I had had a crystal ball and had seen this I don't think that I would have married him or had a family with him.
The sick part is that is who he is right? So if I ask him to stop well he might become an asshole like someone said, and you can't just NOT be yourself... BUT IT STILL AIN'T FAIR TO ME OR THE KIDS, because we'd be living a lie as well, and the situation embarrasses me and ANGERS ME.
I don't want to live this life.
For me, it started with him simply having women's clothes. Now, he hardly has men's clothing!!! The funny thing is dumb me, I thought he was actually getting the clothing for me LOL! NOT! After my pregnancies (we have 3 beautiful children) I do not wear the same sizes as he does... Our whole walk-in closet is full of his women's clothes. I tried talking to him, and all he says is that he doesn't know why he does it. The thing is that I guess I didn't worry about it too much, because it was done in our home, but now my oldest son is noticing AND THAT ISN'T ACCEPTABLE TO ME. I've told him many times that it was a turn off, but I guess he doesn't care. I kind of told him to sell his size ten women's shoes on ebay (oh! He had originally told me that he was buying them to resell them at a higher price on ebay no, no it wasn't for him. So YES, you are absolutely right I'm the dumbest person in the world. I freakin' HATE myself right now.), so he took pictures obviously with the "intent" of posting & selling them on ebay, well he also (he was already dressed in the girly clothes, It BOTHERS ME SO MUCH THAT HE DOES THAT IN FRONT OF OUR KIDS) took pictures of himself in makeup, earrings, and all... When I saw the pictures tonight after my kids were put to bed I nearly vomitted. I feel sick.
I can hardly sleep, I don't know what to do, what's best for my children??? It's not like I don't love him, just not that part of him. Should I divorce him? I'm going nuts here... Why me? I've NEVER had it easy, and AGAIN I CAN'T GET A FREAKIN' BREAK! I wouldn't deprive him of his children, but NO, I don't think I can accept this not with three kids 7, 5 & 1 year old.
Seriously, if I had had a crystal ball and had seen this I don't think that I would have married him or had a family with him.
The sick part is that is who he is right? So if I ask him to stop well he might become an asshole like someone said, and you can't just NOT be yourself... BUT IT STILL AIN'T FAIR TO ME OR THE KIDS, because we'd be living a lie as well, and the situation embarrasses me and ANGERS ME.
I don't want to live this life.