Zenith Getoverit
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I had sex with a few of my cousins and promised many of them my hand in marriage and three of them were all siblings but have no idea about each other. I broke up with each of them one by one. I had sex with my best friend's dad, married men, a police officer who came into my house because I sneaked a guy in my room one night and my parents called the police. I flirted with that police officer and we had sex every weekend at his house. I was still 16. I've prostituted myself, became a satanist and tried to kill this jerk. Then I became very sensitive and emotional and started attempting suicide and cutting myself really bad! Started going to hospitals on a weekly basis, started smoking marijuana, running away, skipping school, grades going bad, having sex with classmates and teachers. I don't understand my life really. I was dating this ambassador's son and cheated on him numerous times and spent all his money. Developed an eating disorder. Either I eat too much and gain a lot of weight, or I binge and purge and starve until I lose a lot of weight fast. Took a whole bottle of Tylenol once and ended up in the ER for days then the psych ward again. I used to have visual and auditory hallucinations at the age of 8. It stopped about two years later but when I see doctors for some reason I like to exaggerate things and say that I still have hallucinations. I used to lie a lot and hurt people on purpose. I would date as many as 3 guys at once and I would have sex with people I shouldn't have sex with. I would date someone online and show them a complete fake picture and date them for a whole year! It's inexplicable. Sometimes I used to do things because I was angry at how many kids never liked me as a young child and they treated me like crap. At 17 I started to change a little but it's a wavy thing. Now at 18, I still have three boyfriends and I still have sex with couples and married men or random people from craigslist. I don't hallucinate but I stopped smoking marijuana four days ago and I really want to graduate high school this year I've already repeated the 11th grade three times! My parents are done helping me, I have many different moods and personalities with different people. I feel fake because I don't even know what my own personality is. I swear I have no clue who I am. I don't like to please people anymore in fact I am more straight forward and I lie less. I love my boyfriend Jakub more than any other guy. He is two years younger than me I tell him the truth all the time but he is super sensitive and sometimes I can't tell him everything. I am less of a liar and I give myself credit but my past still hurts me. I was supposed to go to school today but I didn't I don't stay motivated for long but I know I really want to succeed in life. I have no close friends! My whole childhood I've been traveling to different countries and was never able to keep friends for long. I kissed some guy who's girlfriend is a neighbor like three days ago and I just want to be normal! I want to be like able. My little brother and sister hate me, my dad and I aren't close anymore, My mom and I never were close. I feel like I shouldn't have been born. I don't feel human because I am sooo confused and people are so mean to me when they don't even know me! Now I am fat and disgusting but I stopped cutting myself. I know I'm a smart girl and I achieve impressive things when I am motivated to. My report card last week was excellent but I just have so much to do because of my stupid past mistakes. I take 16 classes in high school! Online and in school. I am wayyy behind and I just feel so depressed at times I want to die. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me and I'm sick of it. I weigh freaking 280 pounds!!! and i'm 5'6!! way too obese but somehow I have a nice body and every douche wants a piece of me. Somebody please give me an impressive piece of advice. Anyone experienced this???
Please read part 1.
I watched porn for the first time at the age of 8 with this maid my parents hired and her and I fooled around many nights but she never fingered me or anything. First time I masturbated and had an orgasm I was 11 and I was fantasizing about my best friend and Hilary Duff. As a kid I used to fool around with other kids and my cousins and I always liked boys taking advantage of me sexually. I was a very sexual kid and have no idea why. When I was younger about 3-7 I was molested many times by family friends. First time I had sex I was 12 and I lost it to my 18 year old boyfriend of two years at the time who is also my second cousin. His older sister's husband called me into his room, kissed and touched me twice that same year and I actually liked it the second time. After that I've had it about five times until I turned 14 and had it with two other guys twice. Then I hit 16 and became depressed and psycho and had it with many many guys. I became evil and really reall
Please read part 1.
I watched porn for the first time at the age of 8 with this maid my parents hired and her and I fooled around many nights but she never fingered me or anything. First time I masturbated and had an orgasm I was 11 and I was fantasizing about my best friend and Hilary Duff. As a kid I used to fool around with other kids and my cousins and I always liked boys taking advantage of me sexually. I was a very sexual kid and have no idea why. When I was younger about 3-7 I was molested many times by family friends. First time I had sex I was 12 and I lost it to my 18 year old boyfriend of two years at the time who is also my second cousin. His older sister's husband called me into his room, kissed and touched me twice that same year and I actually liked it the second time. After that I've had it about five times until I turned 14 and had it with two other guys twice. Then I hit 16 and became depressed and psycho and had it with many many guys. I became evil and really reall