I'm very self conscious about my body which has caused me to isolate myself and so I don't have a social life. I'm embarrassed to go out because I'm afraid of not being perfect. I know it sounds stupid but I've been told my whole life "you have it all, your face is really pretty and you're really smart but you just have to lose weight". Isolating myself has caused me to become a liar. I have to make up excuses all the time to why I can't go out and now I seem to sometimes believe my own lies am I've become quite good at lying.
It's almost like I have multiple personalities. I'm now also really unmotivated, I can't seem to get myself to focus on school and sometimes I don't even get out of bed which is why my attendance is awful and I've encountered some problems with my principal. I think my insecurities might come from some issues I've had with my father but I'm not sure. We use to be really close but once him and my mom started having problems I took her side and he neglected me for about 2 years after the incident. I know I need help but I'm embarrassed to tell anybody about what I'm dealing with.
It's almost like I have multiple personalities. I'm now also really unmotivated, I can't seem to get myself to focus on school and sometimes I don't even get out of bed which is why my attendance is awful and I've encountered some problems with my principal. I think my insecurities might come from some issues I've had with my father but I'm not sure. We use to be really close but once him and my mom started having problems I took her side and he neglected me for about 2 years after the incident. I know I need help but I'm embarrassed to tell anybody about what I'm dealing with.