I hold on to anything and everything bad that has ever happened to me. For example I can be driving down the street than an argument that happened 10 + years ago with a teacher (that at the time upset me a lot) Than it will bother me all over again to the point I can not sleep that night because its bothering me as if it had just happened.
That is just an example but this type of thing happens almost every day. Some-day's it will get to the point it interferes with my daily life and how i treat others. Like in my example something that happened years ago the memory will just pop in to my head than i experience that bad day all over again. And I will take it out on people i care about.
I know I shouldn't let things get to me but I just cant seam to ignore these types of thoughts.
Like right now I can't sleep because of something that happened to me when I was younger involving abuse.
I was going to a therapist for close to 2 years for bi-polar but none of the medications ever helped. And I just kind of gave up. A new medication every month was just too much on me emotionally because I started to develop strong feelings of suicide and when I'm off them I'm not feeling that way. I never really thought to bring it up in therapy that i get flash backs/nightmares of things that happened and it really depresses me and I just want to move on with life.
That is just an example but this type of thing happens almost every day. Some-day's it will get to the point it interferes with my daily life and how i treat others. Like in my example something that happened years ago the memory will just pop in to my head than i experience that bad day all over again. And I will take it out on people i care about.
I know I shouldn't let things get to me but I just cant seam to ignore these types of thoughts.
Like right now I can't sleep because of something that happened to me when I was younger involving abuse.
I was going to a therapist for close to 2 years for bi-polar but none of the medications ever helped. And I just kind of gave up. A new medication every month was just too much on me emotionally because I started to develop strong feelings of suicide and when I'm off them I'm not feeling that way. I never really thought to bring it up in therapy that i get flash backs/nightmares of things that happened and it really depresses me and I just want to move on with life.