Last night I couldn't sleep, at midnight I made myself coffee whit brandy in. Thought it might help. And I wrote this poem.
At midnight
Where am I, where to go
Where will I be tomorrow?
Must I give my best, my all?
Or must I build a China wall?
What to say and what to feel
Is this emotions real?
I can't sleep at night
Cause me and emotions have a fight
Whats the next step to do
all the things in the past I went through
Can't they just disappear
Silent night, is what I want to hear
These things going through my mind
A nightmare, horror or some kind
At night it keeps me awake
My sanity it wants to take
I wanted to believe I was strong
But I could never be more wrong
What a life full of struggle
All the choices I had to juggle
I want to get rid of these
Cause my life and time had freeze
I just can't go on
What an ugly sad song
I can't breathe it's to tight
Please just make everything all right
Im so scared I feel so small
And these fears they are so tall.
