...life should be? Ever since I started college I've been more unhappy than ever. All my friends and family told me it just took some getting used to but I'm in my second year and no, I'm still not "used to it".
I have all these things I want to do and people tell me "just wait until you get your degree". But, why am I getting a degree? To shut these people up. The only reason I'm majoring in cultural anthropology is because it's the closest I could get to what I really want from life.
Ideally, I would have bought a one way plain ticket to anywhere in the world by now and started working in odd or small jobs to get by. Then I would have moved on to somewhere else, taking in all the culture and new people.
I don't care about whatever title I have or how much money I make. I mean, there's more to it but I'm straying from the question.
I'm not a dumb person, I know I am bright. And there is something in the back of my mind that sometimes pulls me back and tells me to do what everyone tells me to do because it's the "right thing". But really? Do I want to look back 30 years from now, an unhappy older woman and regret my life decisions. Just because I was waiting for that feeling of "rightness" that everybody kept telling me about?
I don't know who to talk to about this because everybody I tell is an adult who just went down the path that I don't want to go down. They tell me that it will go away and I will eventually accept that life isn't easy and that I have to do things that I don't like. But I totally disagree with that! I mean, if to get something that will make me happy I have to sacrifice something, then fine. But I don't even want this.
I'll be 20 in a month, by the way. I'm not some angsty teenager.
What do I do? Who can I talk to?
Thanks in advance.
I have all these things I want to do and people tell me "just wait until you get your degree". But, why am I getting a degree? To shut these people up. The only reason I'm majoring in cultural anthropology is because it's the closest I could get to what I really want from life.
Ideally, I would have bought a one way plain ticket to anywhere in the world by now and started working in odd or small jobs to get by. Then I would have moved on to somewhere else, taking in all the culture and new people.
I don't care about whatever title I have or how much money I make. I mean, there's more to it but I'm straying from the question.
I'm not a dumb person, I know I am bright. And there is something in the back of my mind that sometimes pulls me back and tells me to do what everyone tells me to do because it's the "right thing". But really? Do I want to look back 30 years from now, an unhappy older woman and regret my life decisions. Just because I was waiting for that feeling of "rightness" that everybody kept telling me about?
I don't know who to talk to about this because everybody I tell is an adult who just went down the path that I don't want to go down. They tell me that it will go away and I will eventually accept that life isn't easy and that I have to do things that I don't like. But I totally disagree with that! I mean, if to get something that will make me happy I have to sacrifice something, then fine. But I don't even want this.
I'll be 20 in a month, by the way. I'm not some angsty teenager.
What do I do? Who can I talk to?
Thanks in advance.