Lately i've been feeling like i'm not completely satisfying my boyfriend when we have sex. I feel like I should've done more or something more interesting. It just feels like something is missing. It's been hard for me to let myself go and open up in bed with him mostly because of some things that he did in the past. When I try doing a certain thing to him all I think about is how the other girl probably had done it when he cheated. I start think i'm not doing it as good and, afterwards I always feel guilty and ashamed of myself for having done it all. I used to be insatiable in bed. Now everytime I try to let go I can't I just can't. All I see is him with her. I wish I could tell him but, I think if I did it would just cause more problems. So what can I do? The thing se did was oral sex. I used to be ok with giving him oral sex now I just see her giving him it in my head everytime I try to. Then after that my libdo completely shuts down. He told me what he had done we were in the middle of a heated argument. And, he was so angry that he blurted out and gave me details of what she did. Some things I wouldn't do that i'm not comfortable doing. Now whenever I do what I normally did I feel like it's not enough.
