...second... Help?!? Okay, so I'm 23, and I just recently moved in with my boyfriend Mikey. He's 28, and I've known him since I was 16. We've been going out for about a year and a half, though. So basically, since we're living together, everyone assumes we're having sex... We actually haven't. He only had sex with one other girl years ago, and I'm still a virgin because of my beliefs and how I was raised. So Mikey and I have been talking a lot about marriage lately, and I know I'm incredibly in love with him. I would do anything for him; to be with him. He's amazing... So I know I want him to be the only one I'm ever intimate with, and I have no doubts about this. So, since I moved in with him, there have been multiple times where we're at the point where we're going to have sex, and I'm fine up until this point, but then all of a sudden, I tell him I'm not ready. He's really sweet and understanding about it, and he lets it go without making a big deal of it. I feel really bad about the whole thing, though... Every time, I get him all excited, and then back out right before... I don't even mean to... I feel ready. I want to give my virginity to him, and I want to be intimate with him... Something just stops me. I don't know. I even regret backing out the second after I do so, and even AS I'm telling him I'm not ready, I feel really disappointed with myself, and I regret it, but it keeps happening... What should I do? I feel bad, because he thinks I don't want to have sex with him because of something he's doing, but it's not that, at all. He's really sensitive, and he knows I'm a virgin, so he makes me really comfortable, and eases me into everything, but I keep backing out. What should I do? I don't even know why I back out every time... I'm definitely sure I want to do this with Mikey, and I know I'm 100% ready... What do I do?
On a side note, I'm not worried about us breaking up... And I'm about 99.9% sure that he's going to propose to me soon.
And by the way, my beliefs aren't "no sex before marriage." I just always believed that you should only have sex with someone if you're really, truly in love with someone... and I am.
On a side note, I'm not worried about us breaking up... And I'm about 99.9% sure that he's going to propose to me soon.
And by the way, my beliefs aren't "no sex before marriage." I just always believed that you should only have sex with someone if you're really, truly in love with someone... and I am.