I have high anxiety, get very angry, sometimes lose control of myself and get lost in my emotions, can no longer cry, always tired and losing drive/motivation, bitter with the world and people, feel like I can see past everyone's surface, have voices in my head constantly which make me unable to concentrate/focus, think 20 steps ahead like everything is a puzzle, losing sleep, binge drink, starting substance abuse (I have afterglow which is nice), lack of sexual desire even though I could indulge, going off track in life and dream of doing things that I know are completely ridiculous (become a DJ, move far away, sell drugs). Going to the Dr. in a few weeks but would like to know what medicine is out there for each of these symptoms and which ones are good to take (won't make me a zombie and which ones are addictive). I can be an addictive person and want to stay away from anything that I can become chemically dependent on.