i'm not sure how to explain it because it doesn't *always* happen... just usually when something bad happens or someone says or does something that makes me rethink what i had originally believed...
it is very difficult for me to make up my mind how to feel about anything, and it's even harder for me to move on and not dwell on the past. when something happens that shakes up what i originally thought... i dwell on it for days, weeks, even months... there will be days where i'm fine and can function normally, but in just one day, if i dwell on whatever it is that's bothering me for a long time, i will get so depressed that i do nothing but lie in bed thinking about that one thing, or that one thing someone said or did, trying to figure out WHY that person said or did that one thing... and i end up feeling sooo down about myself that i just waste the day away crying and sleeping. i get so angry and lash out at people because of this. but then in that one day, and during the time im feeling depressed, if i take my mind off whatever happened just for a second, my mood can switch immediately, and ill feel fine. but then i'll start thinking about that one thing and i'm back to feeling like sh*t and once again can't even gather the energy to get out of bed.
i mean, i know people get depressed sometimes, but this just doesn't seem normal. i don't know anyone else who has mood swings like i do, where they feel either really high or really low, with the moods switching rapidly and next to no in-between.