I couldnt really come up with a decent title question for this so i just kinda decided to throw that one at you. Well basically this is how it works for me, im currently living in a city after i graduated highschool that is like 2000 miles away from my highschool. I know nobody in this entire state. I dont really socialize I dont really have anywhere to meet anyone (btw please dont give me advice on how to be social that is not my question).
Im a full-time college student working towards a computer science degree. I also pretty much work full-time aswell im getting around 30 hours or more a week. Its becoming real repetitive quick and ive been getting lonelier and lonelier as time progresses. It gets difficult waking up in the morning and taking care of all the little things i need to take care of to progress and i have found myself really like.... in the blue. I have no problems. None. I go to college, i live with my parents and pay rent. No issue with money because i work. I socialize enough at college and at work but the problem is there's no fun. I dont really "enjoy" myself. And when i am alone i find myself sitting on facebook constantly o[pening the page waiting for messages from old friends or anyone "when i know nobody is going to send them". So its a very very saddening daily thing, you constantly wait for text messages "nobody sends" constantly wait for comments from people "nobody sends". So i find myself doing and saying things out of my own charector just for attention. I notice this and really really dislike it, because I hate being weak.
Well this is where the issue comes into play. Because of this, when i meet girls either my age or whatever, right now my focus is taking care of my future and my current life. Im in this state to get my degree, im in this state to surround myself with successful people and begin my career. But its REALLY REALLY REALLY difficult to dig deep on my own without people to talk to on a regular basis. Without people to emotinoally connect with. And when girls talk to me at work or wherever i find myself getting crushes alittle bit too quick.
I go to a monthly counselor. I get the help and advice i need but i kinda want to really get more feedback from other views. Maybe i just want to post this question here because i want to voice my opinion on things that are going on around me. Its prolly this girl that i got on my head right now that im pretty certain isnt interested considering ive asked her to hang out twice and gotten 0 feedback. Or maybe its the fact im too much of a pansy to be real direct about the whole situation and give her the full confrontation that i want to try to be more then friends? But its not. because i usually always make it very clear im interested in a girl.
but for the most part. Im happy and content with my life i just feel and know im missing somthing. I need that emotional connection somewhere. Or a "band-aid" untill i can find it. The monthly counseleing is nice...... But expensive. Maybe its the fact the career field im picking isnt meant for me? Maybe i need a passion? Well... I really like kids alot. I remember some of the most happiest moments of my life was when i was around a friend of mines baby, or playing with kids. Its just such an amazing feeling seeing them smile and being around you as if your iron man. Makes you feel on top of the world to be honest. Well the issue with that is.. (i dont know anybody lol) So yea. NOW Here are a few things i want to avoid. I dont want to get way to out of focus. My focus is my career. My future. This is why i MOVED 2000 miles away. I partied in high school, i messed around then. Im done. Now i sit down and grow up and mature and prepare for my career. I understand itll be hard work and you have your ups and downs. But i want to know, maybe there are little things i can do when im blue to help give me alittle bit of a pick up?
This is what i like to do:
1) sit outside with a view by myself and think.
2) go on youtube and watch videos and stories about real life situations.
3) listen to music
4) ask personal questions on the internet (lol)
5) talk to people
These are some things i do when im blue to help kinda sort out my thoughts and kinda feel better about things. Well the issue is, i have a crush on somone who is pretty much not interested in me. And we both work together. So, everytime i work with her. I will feel like crap, well i need to learn how to better deal with this because i am trying to get over this girl but the issue is my job performance begins to slack. So my question is this, well its really two questions. 1) what are ways to feel less blue, like activities and things i might not know about that have helped you guys? and 2) should i confront this girl about this? Like she already knows i pretty much have 0 friends. So maybe she could
Im a full-time college student working towards a computer science degree. I also pretty much work full-time aswell im getting around 30 hours or more a week. Its becoming real repetitive quick and ive been getting lonelier and lonelier as time progresses. It gets difficult waking up in the morning and taking care of all the little things i need to take care of to progress and i have found myself really like.... in the blue. I have no problems. None. I go to college, i live with my parents and pay rent. No issue with money because i work. I socialize enough at college and at work but the problem is there's no fun. I dont really "enjoy" myself. And when i am alone i find myself sitting on facebook constantly o[pening the page waiting for messages from old friends or anyone "when i know nobody is going to send them". So its a very very saddening daily thing, you constantly wait for text messages "nobody sends" constantly wait for comments from people "nobody sends". So i find myself doing and saying things out of my own charector just for attention. I notice this and really really dislike it, because I hate being weak.
Well this is where the issue comes into play. Because of this, when i meet girls either my age or whatever, right now my focus is taking care of my future and my current life. Im in this state to get my degree, im in this state to surround myself with successful people and begin my career. But its REALLY REALLY REALLY difficult to dig deep on my own without people to talk to on a regular basis. Without people to emotinoally connect with. And when girls talk to me at work or wherever i find myself getting crushes alittle bit too quick.
I go to a monthly counselor. I get the help and advice i need but i kinda want to really get more feedback from other views. Maybe i just want to post this question here because i want to voice my opinion on things that are going on around me. Its prolly this girl that i got on my head right now that im pretty certain isnt interested considering ive asked her to hang out twice and gotten 0 feedback. Or maybe its the fact im too much of a pansy to be real direct about the whole situation and give her the full confrontation that i want to try to be more then friends? But its not. because i usually always make it very clear im interested in a girl.
but for the most part. Im happy and content with my life i just feel and know im missing somthing. I need that emotional connection somewhere. Or a "band-aid" untill i can find it. The monthly counseleing is nice...... But expensive. Maybe its the fact the career field im picking isnt meant for me? Maybe i need a passion? Well... I really like kids alot. I remember some of the most happiest moments of my life was when i was around a friend of mines baby, or playing with kids. Its just such an amazing feeling seeing them smile and being around you as if your iron man. Makes you feel on top of the world to be honest. Well the issue with that is.. (i dont know anybody lol) So yea. NOW Here are a few things i want to avoid. I dont want to get way to out of focus. My focus is my career. My future. This is why i MOVED 2000 miles away. I partied in high school, i messed around then. Im done. Now i sit down and grow up and mature and prepare for my career. I understand itll be hard work and you have your ups and downs. But i want to know, maybe there are little things i can do when im blue to help give me alittle bit of a pick up?
This is what i like to do:
1) sit outside with a view by myself and think.
2) go on youtube and watch videos and stories about real life situations.
3) listen to music
4) ask personal questions on the internet (lol)
5) talk to people
These are some things i do when im blue to help kinda sort out my thoughts and kinda feel better about things. Well the issue is, i have a crush on somone who is pretty much not interested in me. And we both work together. So, everytime i work with her. I will feel like crap, well i need to learn how to better deal with this because i am trying to get over this girl but the issue is my job performance begins to slack. So my question is this, well its really two questions. 1) what are ways to feel less blue, like activities and things i might not know about that have helped you guys? and 2) should i confront this girl about this? Like she already knows i pretty much have 0 friends. So maybe she could