I dont know what do to, I'm in a constant state of depression, for a while i was soo happy. I was just radiating happiness , one of those people. Then all of the sudden i started to look at things in a new way, everything that was green and yellow suddenly turned grey and a dingy brown. When i saw i kid eating candy before i would think he's probably having the time of of his life. Now the only thing i can think of, his selfish parents probably gave him that so they could go off and do whatever they wanted, and the kids teeth would soon rot out. Birds werent singing anymore they were screaming at me.
I dont really know, i dont want medication, and i havent tried self medicating. All my emo friends say cutting helps, but i highly doubt it. Im not the kid all dressed in black sitting alone at school you see everyday, im the kid with a bunch of friends gather around me, and once in a while i go and try to make that kid laugh. Im not listening to some emo band right now either, im listening to the kooks and the arctic monkeys.
I think i just fell out of my ignorance, and started realizing that life itself is precious but only a few people are ever truly happy. Most people merely pretend to be happy to get themselves along. Dont worry im not suicidal just depressed.I want to be one of those happy people those few people that ever found happiness, the happiness everybody else strives for , but i dont know how to get there. I know money has some to play into it, i cant do anything without money, money pays for gas, it pays for french fries and burritos along the way.
My parents are divorced im living in a 1"X1" cabin or so it feels like. I have internet thats a good thing, whatever, i'll check the thread later im going to stay up late and drink
I dont really know, i dont want medication, and i havent tried self medicating. All my emo friends say cutting helps, but i highly doubt it. Im not the kid all dressed in black sitting alone at school you see everyday, im the kid with a bunch of friends gather around me, and once in a while i go and try to make that kid laugh. Im not listening to some emo band right now either, im listening to the kooks and the arctic monkeys.
I think i just fell out of my ignorance, and started realizing that life itself is precious but only a few people are ever truly happy. Most people merely pretend to be happy to get themselves along. Dont worry im not suicidal just depressed.I want to be one of those happy people those few people that ever found happiness, the happiness everybody else strives for , but i dont know how to get there. I know money has some to play into it, i cant do anything without money, money pays for gas, it pays for french fries and burritos along the way.
My parents are divorced im living in a 1"X1" cabin or so it feels like. I have internet thats a good thing, whatever, i'll check the thread later im going to stay up late and drink