So as it is noted here earlier it isn't really the rolling in the gay grass that you miss, it is more the feeling of being special. It is the oh-not-so-uncommon fluctuation of the sense of self. You want something concrete to duct tape your personality into. Something that is constant and that differentiates you from the other sheep. So you can go "Hello. I be Descent, me bisexual". That defines you, makes you you. The problem is, that is not really you. You like the idea, you don't like the practice.
Get it over with, go find a hobby or something to build your personality on.
Or then you're just bisexual and this is a passing thing which is fine.
Stardust: video on infinite loop or it never happened...