Weird question about borrowing money and mental illness?

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If you had loads of mental issues and contemplated suicide on a constant basis and was offered a few thousand dollars from school to borrow which you wont have to pay till you graduate (2012) would you take it? My college has been paid off but I was being offered a Subsidized loan which I wanted to take advantage of and settle my life and seek the help I need as well as fix my personal self and stuff.

I am bipolar and its hard for me to work and go to school and I already owe about $10,000 when I graduate but I wanted to add $4,000 more knowing that I will have the motivation to actually go through college, get a degree and pay off the loans, while if I don't have any money I will still be stuck in the endless catch 22 with finding a job while trying to manage bipolar disorder and social anxiety and dealing with my unsupportive family and friends...


If I do borrow the money how would I stop my manic urges from finishing off the money and actually using it only when I needed for my health and looking for a job (new wardrobe, etc).

I REALLY REALLY want a job by July so don't think I am trying to take the easy way out, too many of my friends have jobs and it just adds insult to the injury and I want to be fully employed by July, I am just asking if this would be a good decision...
I obviously want to use part of the money to get some insurance under my belt so I can get medicine...
Haha and also I want to use that money to get the cigarette quitting aid which NO ONE ever helped with but always had the audacity to sit there and tell me its bad for me...

 

[gigglesrfree]

With your being so unstable and unsure, I'm not sure you want to add this problem to your list. I know that you can walk into any hospital ER, tell them you're suicidal and you will get treatment. There are a number of state funded inpatient facilities for suicidal/mentally ill. Now this probably isn't the solution you want, but consider this: You go in, get your psych exam, get your meds and treatment and the "patch" because very few places are allowing smoking now. You're out of the loop for a few short weeks, they hook you up w/a mental health program near your home based on your ability to pay. Now you've had treatment, got your medications, are stable, can look for work, and then you can make a decision whether or not you want to go into debt another 4K. It's an option, think about it. If you really want help and you sound as if you want it and need it, it may be the only feasible way for short term and long term progress. Don't worry about what your friends or family think, they're not supportive, not part of the solution, so part of the problem. Do what is best for you based only on how you feel and think about it. Good luck and I hope I helped.