I'm a guy(15 years old) and i"m gay. But no one knows(yet). I just moved, and its my first year at this magnet high school. im in 9th grade. Although i was new to the area, i have tons of friends. But I'm still very unhappy because no one knows that im gay. No one that i know is against gays or anything its just i feel like all my friendships would become really awkward. I told a close friends of mine in my old city and she thought i was just turning her down because apparently she liked me or something, we haven't talked since.
yesterday, i built up the guts to show up to the first GSA(gay-straight alliance) meeting at our school. I thought there would only be a few people there because its a relativity small school, and some of the other people like me might not have gone.
so i show up, and theres like 5 people there. then a ton of people show up. there were about 80 people there. most of them my friends. i knew they all couldn't be gay too. when i walked out, my friend commented, "almost no one in there was actually gay." he was assuming i wasn't either. not really the message i wanted.
i really wanted to be at least partly open about it with GSA, but i really don't want my friendships to become awkward and die. should i go to the next GSA meeting? or should i just tell one or two friends so i don't feel like i have the past 4 years? Please any advice, i need help.
yesterday, i built up the guts to show up to the first GSA(gay-straight alliance) meeting at our school. I thought there would only be a few people there because its a relativity small school, and some of the other people like me might not have gone.
so i show up, and theres like 5 people there. then a ton of people show up. there were about 80 people there. most of them my friends. i knew they all couldn't be gay too. when i walked out, my friend commented, "almost no one in there was actually gay." he was assuming i wasn't either. not really the message i wanted.
i really wanted to be at least partly open about it with GSA, but i really don't want my friendships to become awkward and die. should i go to the next GSA meeting? or should i just tell one or two friends so i don't feel like i have the past 4 years? Please any advice, i need help.