Lol my questions pretty long. more like a story but plz answer it...if you feel like reading it.
im 16 .. 17 in 4 months by the way.
I have this friend (seriously its a friend not me lol) we've bin friends forever since we were kids, we talk all the time. she is the same age as me. we both are.. or were virgins... i still am and she recently lost hers. I guess i am a bit jelous of her. I've always not liked the way i look. and im a really closed of.. shy person when it comes to sex and showing myself. im 5'7" and 212 pounds. im not really FAT but im not skinny either. Shes always bin the one to get the guys, guys always want to hangout with her. Im almost like a third wheel i feel like. Today she had just told me she lost her virginity, it hurts obviously. (if you have any comments on how it felt for you plz leave one im kinda curious how it feels if it hurts ALOT) But i dont like the way i look when im naked so i dont see how i can let someone else see me naked. i know if he loves me he will like me for who i am but still its my emotions on howi feel about myself. so the last few days i've decided to watch what i eat. i think im almost starving myself. Like trying not to eat junk food. and not eat during the day. just a normal supper. But today at supper my parents brought home a sub for supper a foot long. I ate half. I usually can eat a full one. but today i just couldn't and since then i just dont want to eat i feel like throwing up if even think of food. so im wondering if this is part of maybe me becoming an anorexic.. because food is starting to just repulse me.. i dont want to think of it, see it, smell it, any thing..I have this friend (seriously its a friend not me lol) we've bin friends forever since we were kids, we talk all the time. she is the same age as me. we both are.. or were virgins... i still am and she recently lost hers. I guess i am a bit jelous of her. I've always not liked the way i look. and im a really closed of.. shy person when it comes to sex and showing myself. im 5'7" and 212 pounds. im not really FAT but im not skinny either. Shes always bin the one to get the guys, guys always want to hangout with her. Im almost like a third wheel i feel like. Today she had just told me she lost her virginity, it hurts obviously. (if you have any comments on how it felt for you plz leave one im kinda curious how it feels if it hurts ALOT) But i dont like the way i look when im naked so i dont see how i can let someone else see me naked. i know if he loves me he will like me for who i am but still its my emotions on howi feel about myself. so the last few days i've decided to watch what i eat. i think im almost starving myself. Like trying not to eat junk food. and not eat during the day. just a normal supper. But today at supper my parents brought home a sub for supper a foot long. I ate half. I usually can eat a full one. but today i just couldn't and since then i just dont want to eat i feel like throwing up if even think of food. so im wondering if this is part of maybe me becoming an anorexic.. because food is starting to just repulse me.. i dont want to think of it, see it, smell it, any thing..so right now im like 212 pounds.. its january. and this summer i plan to be atm y cabin running and hanging out by the lake but i want to with a flat stomache. i want to be 150 pounds.. within 2 months.. my friend ^ the girl i mentioned.. told me to be careful... but right now im just willing to do anything to be that weight... i hate the way i look... everything aboutme i dont like... so leave your thoughts.. or how you may have lost weight fast.. plz.
im 16 .. 17 in 4 months by the way.
I have this friend (seriously its a friend not me lol) we've bin friends forever since we were kids, we talk all the time. she is the same age as me. we both are.. or were virgins... i still am and she recently lost hers. I guess i am a bit jelous of her. I've always not liked the way i look. and im a really closed of.. shy person when it comes to sex and showing myself. im 5'7" and 212 pounds. im not really FAT but im not skinny either. Shes always bin the one to get the guys, guys always want to hangout with her. Im almost like a third wheel i feel like. Today she had just told me she lost her virginity, it hurts obviously. (if you have any comments on how it felt for you plz leave one im kinda curious how it feels if it hurts ALOT) But i dont like the way i look when im naked so i dont see how i can let someone else see me naked. i know if he loves me he will like me for who i am but still its my emotions on howi feel about myself. so the last few days i've decided to watch what i eat. i think im almost starving myself. Like trying not to eat junk food. and not eat during the day. just a normal supper. But today at supper my parents brought home a sub for supper a foot long. I ate half. I usually can eat a full one. but today i just couldn't and since then i just dont want to eat i feel like throwing up if even think of food. so im wondering if this is part of maybe me becoming an anorexic.. because food is starting to just repulse me.. i dont want to think of it, see it, smell it, any thing..I have this friend (seriously its a friend not me lol) we've bin friends forever since we were kids, we talk all the time. she is the same age as me. we both are.. or were virgins... i still am and she recently lost hers. I guess i am a bit jelous of her. I've always not liked the way i look. and im a really closed of.. shy person when it comes to sex and showing myself. im 5'7" and 212 pounds. im not really FAT but im not skinny either. Shes always bin the one to get the guys, guys always want to hangout with her. Im almost like a third wheel i feel like. Today she had just told me she lost her virginity, it hurts obviously. (if you have any comments on how it felt for you plz leave one im kinda curious how it feels if it hurts ALOT) But i dont like the way i look when im naked so i dont see how i can let someone else see me naked. i know if he loves me he will like me for who i am but still its my emotions on howi feel about myself. so the last few days i've decided to watch what i eat. i think im almost starving myself. Like trying not to eat junk food. and not eat during the day. just a normal supper. But today at supper my parents brought home a sub for supper a foot long. I ate half. I usually can eat a full one. but today i just couldn't and since then i just dont want to eat i feel like throwing up if even think of food. so im wondering if this is part of maybe me becoming an anorexic.. because food is starting to just repulse me.. i dont want to think of it, see it, smell it, any thing..so right now im like 212 pounds.. its january. and this summer i plan to be atm y cabin running and hanging out by the lake but i want to with a flat stomache. i want to be 150 pounds.. within 2 months.. my friend ^ the girl i mentioned.. told me to be careful... but right now im just willing to do anything to be that weight... i hate the way i look... everything aboutme i dont like... so leave your thoughts.. or how you may have lost weight fast.. plz.