Ugh, I hate who I am.

B

banano008

New member
Man, I really dont want to be who I am. I feel like I'm a different person inside another. I dont understand what this feeling is, and I dont expect any of you to understand, but... Well, I'm really gifted in things like math and science. I really have a knack for chemistry and sciences similar, but I'd much rather be gifted in art. I know that some of you say, "But Binarycow, science is an art, without science, you would have CANCER!" Yeah, but I'd much rather die from cancer, than not being happy, to tell you the truth. I sit here, listening to music, thinking how awesome it would be if I could play what they're playing, but no matter how hard I try, I can't. Who knows, maybe its just my pessimistic attitude thats dragging me down. Sorry, I've been really depressed lately, and I just wanted to get this off of my chest.
 
Why hate who you are?? I don't understand! We all got shit we like and dislike about ourselves and that's fine, but to not like who you be? come on! Why does one sit around wishin he were like another, take what you got and do what you want! All the shit I've done, things Im good at and things Im not determine my level of creativity! Don't damn yourself for the things you cannot do! Self pity pisses me off. There are many forms of art and you just have to find the one that is right for you and that is when you will truly shine gommer!
 
It's important to understand that everyone feels that way some times. The grass is always greener on the other side. It doesn't mean you hate who you are, it means you understand yourself, and just wish for more. Like everyone else.
 
It's not so much the color of the grass but the THC content.

Be happy with yourself. If you want to learn music then you have to try and learn it. Nothing can be done by bitching about things and not doing anything about them.
 
Ok without even reading the whole post.... Heres my take. Dont bitch about something you can change. GO CHANGE IT! If its something you cant change the wtf why not. But think long and hard before you bitch.
 
I don't think it's always that easy, but you can definitely change somethings about your life. Thinking negative will get you nowhere.
 
If you wan't to learn to play music just learn to do it, no it's not likely you will be some great world famous artist, but all it takes to at least get to the point to play almost anything is practice.
 
I understand what you're saying. I often feel like I was supposed to be someone else. It's a natural thing, so don't freak out. You have two options I've learned. You can either take lessons in what you really want to do and go for it, or you can change your mindset and accept what you're good at as your path in life. You've vented now, which is good, but now that is done and you need to do something about it.
 
Back
Top