...broke it today. I feel awful.? So my ex-husband was horrible. My wanting validation or recognition from him is sort of like how dumb girls want the "mean girls" to notice them or think they're ok. It makes no sense.
I haven't spoken to him or texted or anything since last December.
The phone call was benign...I just told him hi and asked how things were...he told me things were fine and whatever...it was a brief chat. But I feel so dumb. I shouldn't have called him. I don't want to get back with him. He actually really hurt me. He ended the conversation & not me, which is lame...he had to go to work. I should have known better.
Why did I do it? I feel so horrible, like I let myself down and also let him know that I'm thinking of him.
He cheated on me and already has another girlfriend. I'm seeing someone and I don't want to mess it up - that's not what this was about. It's just that I was with him for several years and it all ended so badly. I was absolutely devastated. He was the one who left, but I was the one who filed for divorce. Now I am feeling it all over again. Oh God, why did I do this to myself? WHY? It wasn't really an effort not to call him. But I just did because I was thinking about him. I guess a part of me still misses him...but he was so awful - cheated, lied, stole, spread rumors. I'm so disappointed in myself now.
I haven't spoken to him or texted or anything since last December.
The phone call was benign...I just told him hi and asked how things were...he told me things were fine and whatever...it was a brief chat. But I feel so dumb. I shouldn't have called him. I don't want to get back with him. He actually really hurt me. He ended the conversation & not me, which is lame...he had to go to work. I should have known better.
Why did I do it? I feel so horrible, like I let myself down and also let him know that I'm thinking of him.
He cheated on me and already has another girlfriend. I'm seeing someone and I don't want to mess it up - that's not what this was about. It's just that I was with him for several years and it all ended so badly. I was absolutely devastated. He was the one who left, but I was the one who filed for divorce. Now I am feeling it all over again. Oh God, why did I do this to myself? WHY? It wasn't really an effort not to call him. But I just did because I was thinking about him. I guess a part of me still misses him...but he was so awful - cheated, lied, stole, spread rumors. I'm so disappointed in myself now.