Uch.. Cravings

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Hey guys.....

Stressful day beyond belief.... Work is a nightmare I can't even go into detail there.... Just stress surrounding me and I am cravings ANYTHING to make me feel better.. Back in the day I would have grabbed my purse and popped a couple of pills and a half hour later... Happy as a cucuraber! Now... i am frusterated and angry and don't know how to deal with all of this..

I am going to try some slow breathing.... Compose myself and get this under control but I just needed to vent to you guys because I just want to scream and know I can't do it outloud so... here goes... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thanks!
 
Hi Secrets!;)
Hang in there. My week has been awful too and now I'm back on day two....not too bad yet. An old saying goes, "HALT", don't get too hungry, angry, lonely or tired. Are you hungry for food?(not pills!!!!) um, yep sounRAB like you might be angry, are you lonesome? Tired? What I've done in the past is focus on what i am needing at the moment. Do I need a snack. Do I need a hug. I KNOW I need a pill, but that's not an option here.....do I need to walk outside in the fresh air. Stuff like that. It's hard cuz we get used to fixing all the frustrated feelings with a pill or a drink, and now that that is not an option, what do we do? You did something--you wrote on this website, and that's good. You are in my thoughts hang in there, I am by my toenails:dizzy::eek:
Love,
GypsyBoots:wave:
 
Gypsyboots,

Thank you so very much for your response! You gave me a lot to think about! I think if I seriously could of just walked outside (preferably in the wooRAB where no one could hear) and just screamed even once, all of my frusterations would have been vented. I know that sounRAB jouvenile but it is what it is.

Sometimes I just have to let it out because all I have is you guys! It sucks having no one in real life to vocalize these issue's with.... I have got to find the courage to tell someone.

Things are a little better now but I have so much anxiety from getting all worked up over a craving. It will get better... It also burns a lot of energy getting that worked up so now i just feel wiped!

So what I did was this... I posted my thread.. Got up from my desk and scoured the bathroom from top to bottom at my office and then did the same to the lobby.... You practically have to wear eye glasses to walk into my office.. Once again my boss says.. "Secrets, you know I pay someone else to do this" Then I said, " I know but I just needed to get up from my desk for a while so I decided to be proactive since you are paying me to be here" He just laughed and said... "Secrets, you never short me a minute do you?" I laughed and turned on the vacuum! So... that helped calm me down, I burned my nervous energy and scrubbed scrubbed scrubbed!

I am feeling better and better as the moments pass. Thank you for helping get thru the moment!
XOXOXOXOX
 
You should try yoga or meditation.....other than that, go out and find a big rock, throw it as hard as you can a tree and yell your heart out!
 
Hey there Secrets,

I'm sorry to hear about your cravings however, I do think it's part of recovery - to have thoughts of using, yet find ways to get past it. It's scary to think "Should I be tested?" but I really feel it's par for the course.

I think you did a WONDERFUL job of kicking addictions ass today! You did it! And you should be very proud of yourself. Cravings are hard in so many ways, nevermind the fact that you have so much on your mind these days. How is your grandma doing? I was hesitant to ask, not wanting to remind you of her circumstances but I feel it's important to let people know you're thinking of them so I hope she's doing ok and I hope you're coping with everything emotional.

I am out of town tomorrow and visiting my sisters Saturday so I'll wish you a great weekend now, and hopefully I'll be able to get online before Monday.

With admiration,
emsmom
 
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