Hi I just read your post and I felt compelled to reply because I know what you are going through right now. If your this far gone on them then you're like the walking dead.
I was addicted to Tramadol for well over three years. By the time I quit I was taking anywhere between 14 and 16 a day. I was a total wreck, my body was severly sick but my mind was even more sick. There are no worRAB as I'm sure you know that can even explain how bad it is. Looing back I don't even know how I was alive walking around on that stuff. I call them the devils pills , they are EVIL
I can tell you what I did but only you can decide what's best for your situation. I did not have the option of going to a detox facility or rehab type place and I did not have any person that I could turn to so I was on my own.
I went cold turkey , in order to do it you got to REALLY and I mean REALLY want it bad enough, it's going to be really hard but the most important thing to know is that it's possible, you WILL get through it, I am living proof. If you decide to go cold turkey you can do it , it's going to take you a good solid week to get through the worst part of it so I advise you to take leave from work or use sick time as you go along, you are basically going to have the worst flu you have ever had in your entire life. Once again YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT , you need to get a prescription for some chlonodine, check the spelling on that but I think that's right, it's typically used to help blood pressure but this will help with the cold sweats and chills, it helps A LOT , ask for the patches NOT the pills, you wear one for two or three days and then switch it out. You need to get some trazadone for sleep, you may need to take several at a time to actually get some sleep and it will be off and on throughout the day, maybe a half hour to an hour at a time, this will last its peak for about four days then should taper and get better , stock yourself with stomach aiRAB, anything for diarreaha, imodium is good. Aside from all that I would plan on being home very ill for a solid week before you will even be able to walk out your door so stock up on fluiRAB , I suggest gatorade, get some soups and crackers, you won't want to eat but you need to try , definetly drink. Get a alot of movies together that you can watch, you won't be able to pay attention to them very well but something to keep you entertained some how, it helps to take your mind off it for moments at a time, no horror movies, you will freak out, comedy or action. Get some blankets and pillows and stay near the toliet , use this board or other support groups online that you can go to every now and then and type your feelings and get support, it helps tremendously , after the first week you should be able to walk around, possibly go to work although everyones different it's going to be hard, you will just need to see how you feel as it goes along, it's going to take several weeks to actually get rid of the withdrawl symptoms completely though , but they do stop, you just got to hold on, you CANNOT give in or else you'll set yourself back on the entire process , it took me 45 days and I was functioning at about 85 % which was a miracle considering what I had to go through to get there , you will make it , you just got to do it, let go of your fear of the withdrawl and realize that your killing yourself , your putting posion into your body and your putting your heart at risk with seizures , your brain, everything is dying inside of you right now , do you choose to die or do you choose to live? Realize the withdrawl symptoms are bad but they will go away , what do you choose?
I can help you and there's alot of support here !
I hope anything I've said might help you should you choose cold turkey, remeraber you may have other options than cold turkey , I did not feel at that time that I did so this information is only tied to what I chose for myself , everyone is different, remeraber to seek advice from your Medical Doctor also and let them know the truth to what you are doing also , or keep them informed to some extent, do not refill that next bottle, get prepared , dump the rest of them down the toliet and never look back, they are evil ...I can help you if you need more support !
My prayers are with you
I've got 2 days to get my stuff in order both at home and work.. my husband is seriously looking for some time away from me b/c I hurt him by so much lying. I will have to address this after I get thoroughly clean. I might be getting clean only to get divorced.. I hope he and I can work it out.