This could be a country song...?

[jmeti000]

My girlfriend and I had been together 2 years when she decided she wanted to split. I packed up my things and went back to my home state closer to my family. We kept in contact, and 2 months later she said she missed me and wanted me back. After saving for couple months after, I headed back to be with her. I hadent been there long enough to unpack my boxes when I recieved a phone call that my grandpa passed away. Needless to say, I was on a plane 2 days later back to be with my family. When I get back a week later, she had decided she was going to go out of town for 5 days and leaves her daughter with me. I asked her if she would mind not going and just spending some time with me, and she refused saying that if I can go out of town to be with my family, she should be able to go out of town with her friends. 2 days after she returns, she proceeds to tell me that its not going to work, we are to different and like different things, and would be better off as friends. Her reasoning was because even though i'd just lost my grandfather, I should still want to go out with her...nevermind he hadnt even been in the ground a week at this point. I was very close with my grandparents. My parents were divorced before I was a year old, and they were my caretakers while my mom was at work. I spent most my summers every year through high school hangin around with my grandpa fly fishing on the local rivers, and taggin around with him on their property. Im 33 years old, and believe it or not this is my first experience with a death in the family I have had to go through.

So here we are 3 weeks later, and I still feel sad, sometimes angry, and sometimes I find myself just walking around with no purpose staring at the ground in new back yard. I guess my question is...is it normal to be feeling like this 3 weeks after my grandfathers death? And why would my ex do what she did? Guess im just confused about alot of things...

Thanks.