miks-little-world
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i dont know whats wrong with me.. i feel like i need to know.
well it feels like i have some sort of voice in my head.. but its me.. but another part of me and it wont shut up.. i cant control my negative thoughts and and it upsets me so much and lies to me. but its not a hallucination.. if that makes sense, because i know its.. me sort of.. but a part of me i cant control.
i get depressed alot throughout a normal day about anything at all.. even if its stupid or small i will feel horrible and that there is no way out. i take things out on a person i am very close to (i tell him everything) and i feel like i need to hit him for trying to help me through this.. almost like the other part of me wants him away and for me to be alone forever.he also says my eyes change when the other part of me 'takes over' i really dont know what to do :'( im so paranoid about everything.. i doubt and worry about everything and i want to hurt myself or be sick.
i cant really go to the doctors cos my parents would find out.. and they cant know this for various reasons..
please can someone give me some sort of insight as to whats happening to me.. i am 18 and i have had problems with depression and anxiety previously due to things at school and in my personal life.. but they are over now but im still stuck with this.
i really would appreciate help.. im sorry if i sound crazy, and i really dont want to sound attention seeking, that isnt my intention.. but this has taken over my life. x
well it feels like i have some sort of voice in my head.. but its me.. but another part of me and it wont shut up.. i cant control my negative thoughts and and it upsets me so much and lies to me. but its not a hallucination.. if that makes sense, because i know its.. me sort of.. but a part of me i cant control.
i get depressed alot throughout a normal day about anything at all.. even if its stupid or small i will feel horrible and that there is no way out. i take things out on a person i am very close to (i tell him everything) and i feel like i need to hit him for trying to help me through this.. almost like the other part of me wants him away and for me to be alone forever.he also says my eyes change when the other part of me 'takes over' i really dont know what to do :'( im so paranoid about everything.. i doubt and worry about everything and i want to hurt myself or be sick.
i cant really go to the doctors cos my parents would find out.. and they cant know this for various reasons..
please can someone give me some sort of insight as to whats happening to me.. i am 18 and i have had problems with depression and anxiety previously due to things at school and in my personal life.. but they are over now but im still stuck with this.
i really would appreciate help.. im sorry if i sound crazy, and i really dont want to sound attention seeking, that isnt my intention.. but this has taken over my life. x