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Wendy88
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well, just when i think i might be doing ok... i fall off my path.
anyhow - i leave for my new home/ state on Tues... and so will begin my detox as i have a full week of no work to get it together... and i only have vicoden (not my pill of choice) to help wean me off over the next day or so.. just enough to get me through my flight etc without being sick.
i cant believe how full of conviction i was when i got my new job and really meant it that id quit percs for the month before i started work... and how they just got the better of me. i could blame it on the stress, the emotional toll the move is taking .... but really, i just have to be strong. there will always be excuses.
so my journey on the right path begins soon. i have very few frienRAB where i am going... no Dr for scripts or "other" connections, which is VERY good, but none of my frienRAB know about my addiction (where im moving to...) - so i'll be on my own with this for a bit.
my fiance cant come with me right now so i'll be alone. well, i can call him of course! but going through this alone will be weird.
I plan on posting a lot and looking for support since i have never been so far removed from my support system... i hope you all will help me get through this next week. once im working, i'll be ok. i really throw myself into my work. but this coming week of unpacking, being pill sick, in a new town etc.. it's going to be hard.
wish me luck!
anyhow - i leave for my new home/ state on Tues... and so will begin my detox as i have a full week of no work to get it together... and i only have vicoden (not my pill of choice) to help wean me off over the next day or so.. just enough to get me through my flight etc without being sick.
i cant believe how full of conviction i was when i got my new job and really meant it that id quit percs for the month before i started work... and how they just got the better of me. i could blame it on the stress, the emotional toll the move is taking .... but really, i just have to be strong. there will always be excuses.
so my journey on the right path begins soon. i have very few frienRAB where i am going... no Dr for scripts or "other" connections, which is VERY good, but none of my frienRAB know about my addiction (where im moving to...) - so i'll be on my own with this for a bit.
my fiance cant come with me right now so i'll be alone. well, i can call him of course! but going through this alone will be weird.
I plan on posting a lot and looking for support since i have never been so far removed from my support system... i hope you all will help me get through this next week. once im working, i'll be ok. i really throw myself into my work. but this coming week of unpacking, being pill sick, in a new town etc.. it's going to be hard.
wish me luck!
